How can I not believe in things that everyone else sees?

Why does it seem that I always have to play the role of a second best? I am starting to hate it. Why can't anyone choose me for me and not because they want to be rid of someone? ...Because someone left them or they're fed up with the relationship? This is so insulting for me. I feel like I am just someone they can run to whenever they are in need of rescue. What am I -- a social worker? I feel like I am robbing a bunch of women their loved ones. It is just so frustrating. And I don't like the way it makes me feel. I feel like a crap. I feel like they're using me as an outlet or something. Can't men be man enough to commit? I don't like it that they always find a way out of what troubles they caused. And I am the accomplice. I just so despise it.

Yes, maybe I am just upset. I am saying this because I am damn upset that people can't love anymore. One time they'd tell you how much they love you and then later on after seeing the real you -- the attitudes they didn't know you have, they will just call it quits. Or if they found out that they want something else and you don't have it, they'd start treating you differently, give you less time and would make you damn insecure about yourself. And in stead of telling you up front, they'd make you guess. and girls would go like, "just what is wrong with me?" Girls would go crazy thinking what to do and try change themselves. It's just so habitual. Men just take the easiest way out. When they are broken they'd go look for some sort of entertainment at another's expense! How boorish! Insensitive freaks! (Sorry...I just feel so upset.)

I know I have no right to be rude even with words but I cannot contain this anymore. I don't understand a thing. I have so many questions running in my head and it's like I am starting to lose my sanity. For goodness sakes! Anyone tell me, Why?

I am in pain right now. I don't know what to believe. I don't know who to trust. And I am incapable of reasoning. People are full of schemes. They do things for their own advantage. For their own pleasure. For their own happiness. They don't even consider another's. How could they?

Ok, it's not right that I am generalising. Not all men are the same. But how can I not? Can anyone tell me?
There's someone I know who once loved a girl. After some time he realised he don't love the girl anymore because he couldn't put up with her despicable attitude. How can you fall out of love with someone just because of freaking attitude? I don't get it. You love someone for who they are. Without questions. That's why it's called love. If it's just infatuation or mere crush then I'd understand. Because you're just attracted to someone for physical reasons. But love is something else. Love is accepting. What if someone tells me he loves me and then after some time my ugly attitudes show? Will this someone leave me too? It's really freaking scaring the hell out of me. Nobody's perfect for goodness sakes! All of us have flaws. If people fall out of love because of something they discover...something they don't like about someone then nobody can love. Nobody is capable of loving. Nobody can be loved because of imperfection.

I found a new girl friend. She talked about pure love. She's insisting that there's no wrong in LOVE. She insisted that Love is pure. There is no fear in love. I know about it. I've read it several times in the Bible. "There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love." (1 John 4:18)...I don't understand this as clearly as I understand it now.

Pure love means loving unconditionally. Loving unconditionally means loving without conditions; Loving with all your heart. Seeing past someone's mistakes, imprefections... Who could really give this? So far, I have found none...only my mom.

Mom, she put up with my dad all her married life. She accepted all that dad had her put through. And I admire her so much for that. I know that she loved my dad unconditionally. Having seen all dad's imperfections, she loved him, stayed with him and they're still together til now. That is unconditional love. So, how can anyone say that it is impossible to love unconditionally? I think those saying this just don't have the will to do so. Love is also a choice. Someone may be hurting you but you can still choose to love them. And by loving someone with all your heart can/may cause change. Well, ideally speaking of course. But the problem nowadays, people just don't want to commit. They are just not willing to commit. Because there are so many options laying on the table. They think they can get away with things just like that. The world has given people more reasons not to stay. It is so sad.

In this culture, it is so important to find a loving relationship with someone because so much of the culture does not give you that. But the poor kids today, either they're too selfish to take part in a real loving relationship, or they rush into marriage and then six months later, they get divorced. They don't know what they want in a partner. They don't know who they are themselves--so how can they know who they're marrying?

I find myself in question again

I hope to be able to give people the best advice I could ever give anyone. The book, "The Purpose Driven Life" is a good self-help book because it teaches us on how to live life with purpose (as the title suggests). And not only that advices were given. They're given with depth. They're no non-sense advice. I took the book seriously, though what's written there is a bit hard to follow. I mean, of course, it's not easy to just alter whatever plans one might have already set for himself. It's hard to start again. I should've read the book long time ago. But, maybe I just need to collect all the courage I have to have a purpose driven life.

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"The most important and precious asset in a person’s life is time. It is a limited commodity in one’s life. Whereas one may make more money, one cannot make more time. Because of this, it is the most vital sacrifice one can offer to another of the human race—the absolute greatest way one can demonstrate unselfish love toward another is through focused attention. Often fathers forget this, believing that providing material things for their wife and children is sufficient to show their love. It is not! Nothing takes the place of spending time with those who should be loved. When a person gives one’s time to another, he is giving of himself—a true act of unselfish love—because to give one’s time to anther is to take it from one’s self."

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Hmmm.... So, this is why when I give time to people, they kinda think it is because I have something special for them. Ok, let me state this clearly. Most of the guys interested in me would think they have a chance on me because I spend time with them. Which is not really the case. I am naturally like giving everyone time. Because my purpose in life is to show compassion...to give love. Not necessarily in a romantic form. Just that there's no other way but to share a moment of my time. And I hope that guys would stop focusing on finding a partner. Relationships can take many forms. They might be looking for someone to share a relationship with but the only relationship I can give them is friendship. I am saying this because, although, yes, I may be giving them "the most important and precious asset in my life" and that I care for them...and maybe I love them in a platonic way (or friendly way), I only am doing this because of the purpose I should serve. Nothing romantic. Nothing intimate.

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Attention says, “I value you enough to give you my most precious asset – my time.” When you give someone your time, you’re giving them a portion of your life that you’ll never get back. Your time is your life. You can always make more money, but you cannot make more time.

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Yes, "relationships are what life is all about". I don't blame people if they keep searching for someone to share a relationship with. I just don't get why they do the searching almost all the time. It puts me in a situation where I don't know how to share my time with people without giving them false hope that I might be the one they've been looking for. I want them to understand that there are people like me who just want to give of themselves without romantic attachments.

Anyway, I agree that time is the best gift we can give people, although I only realised it just now. And it makes me feel guilty that I give less of my time to my family. It's like I can let the time pass without seeing or talking with them. Does it mean, I love them less? *sigh*

Everybody loves me, and I intend to keep it that way.

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Where have you gone?

I think that to some degree, all of us are fractured souls -- cut in half. And we wander through life looking for the rest of ourselves and sometimes, we're fortunate enough to meet someone who possesses in themselves the part of ourselves that we've been missing. We see in someone else something of ourselves. That's why you meet someone and you just immediately feel comfortable with them. You feel like you've known them all your life. The reason is that they're a part of you and you're a part of them. You're soulmates, you fit. And once you've fit together, nothing can pull you apart unless you let go.

Have you ever felt that someone came into your life for a reason? That someone was sent to you to teach you something... You lived your life as if you didn't need anyone and you're all content with what's going on with you. Then, someone will come knocking unexpectedly. This person is someone who fills the part where you're lacking. Somehow, you feel so comfortable with them that everything seems wonderful. You miss noticing the bad things around. All you can see is the world's beauty. You start seeing life differently now. Only because of this one person. You are forever changed because someone came and you don't want to lose them forever.

"In my world I walk to a different drum. You came along and joined me in my journey. I am now in harmony and at peace in the world of love."

"My world is a little nicer because I share it with you."

It's just like a new pair of underwear. At first it's constricting, then it becomes a part of you.

"Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one."

Can you commit? Getting into a relationship is not a joke. It entails responsibility and commitment. It entails a lot more than we can imagine. So decide wisely.

...But how can we tell if we are already facing a loving relationship?

The above statement is posted on My Lot as a comment on a rather fragile topic. I am never liberal when it comes to things that involve relationships, love, life and many others. But I do keep an open mind about certain matters. And I even defy my own rules. I have given some things a thought, maybe. Not that I am trying to provide reasons for things, of course. Some things are worth the try.

The topic was about living in with someone before marriage. I don't believe in living in with someone. I won't even go for it. But I would be too self-righteous to say, I won't ever do it. Who knows? Yes, I have a very strong hold on my conviction but I can't still be too certain. Just why are people resolving to it (live in)? Because it's practical. Unlike the old household problems where the wives put up with their domineering husbands... having the "live in" option gives them all the right to just leave the bastards. The battered wives won't have to bear all the physical and emotional tortures anymore only because they try to cling to their vows or because they want their families in tact. Same case with the husbands. With living in, men can just opt out. Say, they find something wrong with their women or they suddenly realised that they can't put up with naggers or something. Who wouldn't choose that option where you can easily just get away with things, right?

By saying these things, I am not really listing down reasons why live in can be good or acceptable. The bottom line here is people lack the maturity needed to come up with the right decisions. They cannot commit. I mean, yes, it is so easy to fall in love with anyone who almost has the qualities one can ever look for in a partner. But then again, it takes a lifetime to really get to know someone. In truth, we haven't seen yet. The friend you have spent 10 years with may still be a stranger. There's still a lot of things you don't know about him. My point is, discovering bad things about your partner should not be a reason to want to leave him/her. Falling in love with someone (moreso, marrying someone) entails many things like acceptance, patience and understanding. When you commit to someone like what the statement above says, you have to forget about the word "quit". It must never come out of your mouth. Commitment plays a very vital role in any relationship and I believe no relationship could ever remain strong without it.

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Real loss is only possible when you love something more than you love yourself.

You know what it's like getting up every morning? Feeling hopeless, feeling like the love of your life is waking up with the wrong "woman". But, at the same time hoping that "he" still finds happiness, even if it's never going to be with you.

- Hitch

When I was having a hunch that my X's seeing someone, I right off asked him about it. Tried everything just to make him confess. You see, I have a very strong intuition. Although he kept denying it, there was something that told me, he was not telling the truth. Yes, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and I gave him my trust, no matter how persistent the suspicion's lodging in my head at that time. And I believe it's the toughest, most courageous thing I have ever done in my life. Why? Because I know the truth will come out one day and it will hurt me big deal. Yet, I chose to trust. And I was right. His conscience might have consumed him that he told me the truth. I sensed how awkward he was feeling when he was confessing to me. He still cared til the bitter end. My only sentiment was he didn't talk things out with me -- his issues with my playing basketball, with Dada, with my being passive and many others. I mean, he never gave me chances to show him how much I care. Instead of telling me what he needed/wanted he chose to keep things to himself, which didn't help at all. I could've fought for him. But I didn't. It was my decision not to. You'd know if there's something worth fighting for. At that time I felt there was nothing. They say, you'll never know til you give it a try. How was I so sure? When I made him choose between me and her, he couldn't. He couldn't even tell me if he still love me. The one thing that could've made me hang on. I felt a twinge in my heart. Ouch! I had to let him go. There's nothing that binds us anymore. There's no love anymore. One week had passed. A phone ring. It was him. He wanted me back. This time I was the one unsure of whether I still want him back. Not because I didn't love him anymore, but because I didn't want to get the girl hurt. So, I gave him away. Told him that I thought it's better if I take all the pain since I was already in deep pain. I gave him away.

Somehow, it is important to me that I don't just force myself to someone. That I don't force a person to stay. It should be a voluntary act.

I always give someone away.

Whenever I watch romantic movies, witness couples kiss and make up, listen to a love song, I smile and feel good cause I know that love still works...if not for me at least for others.

- Ally Mcbeal

Little Black Book

I was ready to try again. A little bruised. A little humbled. And, hopefully, a little smarter.

I believe we write our own stories. And each time we think we know the end, we don't.

Perhaps luck exists somewhere between the world of planning, the world of chance and in the peace that comes from knowing that you just can't know it all.

You know, life's funny that way. Once you let go of the wheel, you might end up right where you belong.

Wishing someday I would find true love

Wouldn't be nice to see the morning with the one you love the most? Wouldn't be nice to say goodnight to the one you hold so close to your heart?

Wouldn't be nice to hold someone so dear near your heart? Wouldn't be nice to hear those words "I love you" from the one that you love?

I love to sit in fields of green looking deeply thru the sky, Watching birds as they flap by hoping someday faith will bring me true love.

I love to see myself one day in the arms of someone who will share his life with me selflessly...
Someday you will find your way to me . . .

Where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

The line between right and wrong had blurred.

You can reach all the things that you'd love but can't give to me. You chase all the things you can't have and I am a diamond closed tight in your hand.

I knew it! I never listen to my instinct. What? Is it because I'm that gullible...that people are taking advantage of me? I hate it! Dammit! Why do people deceive so much? You don't want to trust them and then they'd find a way stealing your trust. For what? To just waste it all away. How cruel! Just what is happening? I could just slam my head to the wall til it's smashed into small bloody pieces.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.

One trusted person betrayed my trust. All of it. And I don't know how to trust again.

I will not apologize for who I am.

Must I?

Sometimes, I want to pity myself for being myself. Not for anything, but because people don't find it easy to understand me. They always give different interpretations for each action I make. There are times that I rather just shut my world off. That way, nobody sees me, nobody questions me. I think it's better that way. I have to be sorry for myself that I can't allow the world to really get to know me. Because people in it almost always accuse me of having ulterior motive that at times I even start to doubt myself. Why can't they just take me as I am?

So much for a sad start. Still I am blessed for having people who believes in me. Just a few, though, but enough to keep me hanging. I just hope that people won't be too judgmental. None of us know any better. This is me. Live with it... take it, love it. hehe *shrugs*

"I'm sorry that people are so jealous of me... but I can't help it that I'm so popular."
- Mean Girls

I myself am strange and unusual.

“I love you” is very easy to say. Indeed! And anyone can just tell you that without truly meaning it. It's so easy to trust. Everything seems easy but when you're already hurt, it's never so easy. What do I know?

I am the type of girl who is terrified to lay her heart out in the open. Terrified of a lot of things, actually. I hardly allow anyone get close enough to hurt me. Nah-uh! *shrugs* When the topic of relationship and loving comes in, I back off almost immediately. I am afraid of pain. Why does it sound like there's so much pain out there? There's so much pain in loving. Because, truth of the matter is, pain is almost the foster sister of love. And no matter how I re-read my favorite Bible verse about love... it only proves how much scared I am and will be. It's not working. It's like I am in a battle. I know I only have myself to protect me. So I shield myself from danger. It is so easy to trust but I can't just give it like that.

And for goodness sakes! As if! Come on people. Are you really thinking I can still get affected with all your worthless babblings?! I've had worst than that. Lemme tell you, nothing can hurt me as much anymore. All has been said about me already. And countless times I had proven everyone wrong. Want sommore?!

So you love me... you just don't want me?

...the more I love the more that I'm afraid that in your eyes I may not see forever.

Be careful to whom you give your heart because when you give your heart to someone, you're not only giving that person the right to love you, but the power to hurt you too.

What Oprah says about MEN

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck, NO. You can't be friends. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.Don't stay because you think "it will get better". You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are no better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maitain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.

Don't ever make him feel he is more important than you are. Even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated WITH you, he'll cheat ON you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you. All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be doing all the bending...compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships, there is nothing cute about baggae. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to complete you. A relationship consists of two whole individuals. Look for someone complimentary not supplementary.

Dating is fun even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him--he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Words just make it worse, they're misunderstood.

"I know we're all pretty small in the big scheme of things, and I suppose the most you can hope for is to make some kind of difference, but what kind of difference have I made, what in the world is better because of me?"

I felt bad that there's this person accusing me of making another person's life (hers) miserable. Like, duh?! Am I that powerful to cause someone such misery? Ridiculous! It's been days since this incident happened. Someone posed as another person and threatened me. Told me things that I consider the silliest ever told to me. I could roll in laughter (Not to mention the very poor grammar). At least, now I can really roll in laughter because during that time when we were exchanging messages, I was raised hell. Seriously. My hands were shaking in anger, I hardly could type. Maybe, I shouldn't have responded. I could've just ignored her. I tried to send her warnings. "Stop it, I know you". She wouldn't stop. I don't know, but I couldn't just let her get away with it. Something, someone has to halt her. There's something that told me, you better not let her get away with her irrationality. But it was all pointless. She wouldn't listen to reasons. She knows only her own. Like, come on! She doesn't know better. Damn, how I wish she'll realise that, for goodness sakes! Oh, well. You can't really please everyone.

I believe she has superiority complex. Poor her. Well, if it's what's making her happy...

(The adjectives in BOLD directly describes her)

Superiority Complex refers to a subconscious neurotic mechanism of compensation developed by the individual as a result of feelings of inferiority. The term was coined by Alfred Adler (February 7, 1870 – May 28, 1937), as part of his School of Individual Psychology.

Those exhibiting the superiority complex commonly project their feelings onto others they perceive as inferior to themselves. Accusations of arrogance and cockiness are often made by others when referring to the individual exhibiting the superiority complex.

Behaviors related to this mechanism may include an exaggeratedly positive opinion of one’s worth and abilities, unrealistically high expectations in goals and achievements for oneself and others, vanity, extravagant style in dressing (with intention of drawing attention), pride, sentimentalism and affected exaltation, snobbism, a tendency to discredit other’s opinions, forcefulness aimed at dominating those considered as weaker or less important, credulity, and others.

Social aloofness, daydreaming, isolation could also be associated to the Superiority Complex, as a way to evade the fear of failure related to the feelings of inadequacy to face real world.

- Wikipedia

Love has places to go and people to hurt.

Standing in our silence
I hear my heart beating
And if only I could choose
I'd stay here with you
But hold me til the train is leaving
Somewhere down the line
After you're gone from sight
Our love will be the same
And, whispering your name,
Ill cling to you with all my might

Let me dream of you
But its true
And wake me up when this is over
Love will be there when this is over and

Somewhere far beyond today
I will find a way to find you
And somehow thru the lonely nights
I will leave a light in the dark
Let it lead you to my heart

There's a love inside us
Deep down inside
That goes without saying
Dont say a word
But I'll tell you just the same
And that love will fan the flame
And that flame will warm the heart thats waiting

You are mine and I'll wait for you my love
You are mine it may take some time
Even if it takes a lifetime
Tell me you'll wait

And somewhere alone
I will be praying you home
I know that somehow our love

Our love will lead me to your arms

Chasing rainbows.

Guess which of the seven sins you are. Me? I'm a...

Which one of the seven deadly sins are you? Sloth You are lazy and love to lounge around.

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Be afraid, be very afraid.

I am evil fwahahaha! See if you are as evil as I am.

How evil are you?

The rest is silence

You left a stain on every one of my good days
But I am stronger than you know
I have to let you go

Dogs have so many friends because they wag their tails instead of their tongues

Love can cause so much. It's true that sometimes, some things (some people) can really get into our nerves. There are situations when we're pushed to our boundaries. If you get easily pissed, that's even worse. Yes, I know some people who just can't help but react right off on what annoys them. And I mean, violently reacting to what's annoying them. Very poor in patience. That's alarming. I don't know if it's a contagious attitude. Just imagine, what if everyone is as cranky as some of these people I'm talking about? Whatta chaotic place the world would be! Right? I mean, please do agree with me. I hope I am not the only one dreaming of a peaceful place to live in.

While I work hard to stay patient, other people give lesser effort to understand another person's difference. Don't get me wrong. I am not putting so much expectation on anyone. But, I cannot deny the fact that I am somehow expecting that people would work too, at least to avoid reacting violently at some trivial issues. Oh, but you know what? Worse, there are people who drag more people to dislike the person they dislike. Then they end up like a plattoon of bitter people attacking one already disabled soldier. Whoa! So ridiculous.

I've learned that LOVE can truly handle situation. If people just have enough love (in their hearts) to give, then it wouldn't be so hard to just let rude people go. "To put the person ahead of their actions." The article below tells more about RESPECT and LOVE. I posted this article last year on my protopage. I want to share with you.

(The above photo is my artwork hehe)

"Love Respects Others"

"[Love] does not behave rudely, does not seek its own." —I Corinthians 13:4 NKJV

It is difficult to control one's temper, when one is waiting in line and someone jumps in ahead of you. But trouble can be averted, if you have enough love in your heart to keep your mouth shut. You might even say a prayer for that rude person, thereby preventing yourself from also being rude.

Your attitude can make all the difference in your treating people with respect or treating them rudely. When you get up in the morning and ask God to fill your heart with love, you're more likely to have a pleasant day, rather than a painful one that is filled with confrontations. For your attitude determines your actions.

Joni Eareckson Tada, a paraplegic since a teenage accident, is so loving that she is able to say, "Don't get angry at the person who acts in ways that displease you. Give him a smile he lacks. Spread the sunshine of your Lord's limitless love."

Christmas is the season that we celebrate God's infinite love for us through Jesus Christ. Many people want to take Christ out of the holiday season. Instead of getting angry and saying rude things, we have the opportunity of exhibiting Christ's love by being unselfish and respectful to all.
Lord, give me the courage and strength to be polite and loving in the face of rudeness. Amen.

The above devotional message is written by Jane Douglass White and recorded by Rev. Ted Nace, Vice President of Stewardship of Guideposts.

Between grief and nothing... I'll take grief

We all learn something in life as we deal with different people, problems, situations... Everyday as we get up from bed, there are new experiences waiting. Nobody promised everything's going to be smooth or fun. It is always a combination of pain and delight. No matter what failure or heartaches we encounter, the important thing is to learn from each experience and become a better individual.

I've Learned - by Omer Washington

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes, after that, you'd better know something.

I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do. I've learned that it's not what happens to people, it's what they do about it. I've learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you'll see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that there are people, who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance same goes for true love.

I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other and just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual ahead of their actions. I've learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I've learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life. I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I've learned that writing, As well as talking, Can ease emotional pains. I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. I've learned to love and be loved. I've learned.

Fortune smiles at some and laughs at others

The UE Red Warriors defeated the San Beda Red Lions in yesterday's championship game for the 2006 Collegiate Champions League, 66-59 (Rizal Memorial Coliseum). *sobs*

James Martinez, who used to play for San Beda College, let out 3 point shots almost unstoppably, ending with 16 points for the game. He definitely made a name on this championship game.

San Beda went home with P200,000 while UE took home the trophy (not to mention the title), P500,000 worth of scholarship grants and sports equipment.

UE 66 -- Martinez 16, Borboran 13, Gregorio 12, Espiritu 10, Labagala 5, Arellano 3, Bandaying 3, Thiele 2, Canizares 2, Lingganay 0, Briones 0.
SAN BEDA 59 -- Aljamal 14, Ekwe 11, Menor 7, Escobal 7, Maggay 6, Tecson 6, Angeles 4, Gamalinda 2, Taganas 2, Evangelista 0.
Quarter Scores: 1st: 14-6, 2nd: 27-25, 3rd: 50-45, Final: 66-59

Earlier, the Jose Rizal University Bombers defeated the Mapua Cardinals, 76-72. The Bombers took home P100,000 worth of scholarship grants while Mapua P50,000.

JRU 76 -- Wilson 15, Nocom 12, Cagoco 11, Pradas 11, Dedicatoria 10, Hayes 9, Sena 6, Se 2, Caspe 0, Fenequito 0,.
MAPUA 72 -- Tiongco 18, Gonzales 15, N. Pascual 12, Mazo 7, Del Rosario 6, Guillermo 6, Co 3, Sumalinog 3, Migraso 2, Acosta 0, J. Pascual 0.
Quarter Scores: 1st: 29-10, 2nd: 47-30, 3rd: 66-47, Final: 76-72

Later that day, the San Miguel Beermen defeated the Ginebra Kings (Cuneta Astrodome) in an overtime game, 101-97.

Quarter Scores: 1st: 24-14, 2nd: 47-33, 3rd: 68-57, 4th: 86-86 (Reg.), Final: 101-97 (OT).

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All my favorite teams were defeated! *sigh* I am so sad. Still, the Red Lions are the 2006-2007 NCAA champions. hehe

The smile wears thin and the lies begin

"Gossip needn't be false to be evil - there's a lot of truth that shouldn't be passed around. "

~Frank A. Clark

Nowadays, I find people so into the lives of other people. It has been their hobby to talk about another person's affairs, situations, decisions, mistakes and a lot more. Which makes me wonder, why? Why are they taking pleasure in matters that are none of their business? I mean, yes, I have to admit that there are also times that I get to listen to some gossips about some people I know. And I really listen as if it's music to my ear. I cannot understand why I listen, but I know in my heart I don't pass it along.

Let me, take that back. There were instances that I am guilty of passing along gossips to some trusted people. And I am also guilty that sometimes I get to pass some gossips to another out of necessity... so that I'd have something interesting to share, for instance. For whatever reason, I am guilty. It doesn't make me happy nor proud of myself because I know it is so wrong. And I know in my heart that if someone would do the same to me, I will be deeply affected and will be badly hurt.

Maybe, it is our nature, human's nature to meddle on other people's life. It's weird and very petty. When we could always find a lot more sensible and useful things to do. Quoting Dolley Madison, "It is one of my sources of happiness never to desire a knowledge of other people's business," I hope to make it a point not to spread gossips anymore, no matter how true the story may be. Like come on! It is none of anyone's business anymore if a co-worker got pregnant, or the janitor was once accused of a crime (as long as you're not directly affected), or the supervisor is cheating on his girlfriend. Damn, these are just things we have nothing to do with anymore!

I am just bothered that it might become a fad or something. Worse, a hobby. Personally, I intend not to continue on tolerating people telling me any form of hearsay, anymore. I noticed that tolerating such things in my life makes me part of it. If I just listen, sure it's not just going to stay with me. It's going to come out because I already have a shared knowledge of something. Once, the topic is opened, I'd sure begin to talk about what I know. It's not right. Also, it's going to cause me to become judgmental. So, I hope I can gather all the strength I need to do what I should do. To put on brakes.

A bumper sticker motto expresses the goal of a campaign to curb gossip: “Put the breaks on loshon hora.” The movement began with Rabbi Chaim Feld in Cleveland, Ohio, who says the Bible forbids speaking words that hurt other people in any way. Loshon Hora is a Hebrew phrase for negative or cruel speech—an evil that causes untold damage.

Rabbi Feld says, “If you’ve never met Michael, and someone tells you he is a jerk, then Michael has been murdered for you, before you even met him.”

Someone has said, “When tempted to gossip, breathe through your nose.” That’s a good way to keep our mouths shut, but we also need a solution that gets to the heart of the issue.

The antidote to the poison of gossip is love, which neutralizes the toxin in our hearts before it escapes through our lips. The Bible tells us, “’You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ love does no harm to neighbor; therefore love is the fulfillment of the law” (Romans 13:9-10).

Whenever we’re tempted to pass along negative word about someone, even if it’s true, let’s seek God’s help in putting the brakes on gossip. Instead of loshon hora, let’s speak word of kindness and love.

- David McCasland

Temper's the one thing you can't get rid of by losing it

I reviewed my old blog entries in multiply. There are some that I think I should copy and post here.

I chose to post the story below to remind myself that I need to remain patient at all times. Also, to share with my readers that they have a responsibility to remain patient and respectful of others' differences.

Most of the time, we get irritated or angry because someone failed to meet our expectations. It is just normal. But to get easily angry is another story. To burst in anger is even worse. We can never expect people to act or react according to our expectations. There may be instances that could really push us to our boundaries, but to be mean and rude is never a good response. We don't know how much pain we can induce to a person if we let our anger rule us.

Yes. There are irritating people. So many of them. I have some things I dislike about someone. And I cannot deny the fact that maybe there are some who have some dislikes about me too. So, that makes us mutual, right? Having this in mind, I know where to put myself. I know that it is my responsibility to respect the difference of every individual I have to deal with everyday. They can do silly things that could piss me, but that doesn't mean I have the right to be rude. I have to keep in mind that my parents sent me to good schools so I can be a good person. Therefore, I will try harder to be a good person. For all I know, I also have some attitude that's annoying to others.

Just imagine how lovely the world could be if all of us work to bring harmony into it. If we respect and not judge. If we just accept each other's differences...

Here is the story...

This is a true story which happened in the States.

A man came out of his home to admire his new truck.

To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck.

The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment.

When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital. Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands.

When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?"

The father went home & committed suicide.



Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.

Too often we fail to recognise the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

Pause and ponder. Think before you act. Be patient. Forgive & forget. Love one and all.

My eyes have been opened, I can never go back

“What is a friend, anyway?” This line is taken from the movie, “Jawbreaker”. Had seen the movie quite a number of times and the line remained echoing in my head since. Dunno but maybe my quest for a friend, who I can really call a friend, just caused me too much frustrations and regrets. Sometimes, I get to ask myself whether it’s me or it’s them. Whether I’m putting too much expectation on potential friends or I’m just one despicable person who anyone can’t get along with. This is already with reminding me not to be hard on myself, would you believe that?! Just that, I can’t help it. What is damn wrong with me?! Ok, I am not like everybody else. So? I mean, I didn’t think it is a requirement to be just like everybody else to get along. What is individuality about if that’s the case? Friends accept one another. At least, this is one of the few ways I can describe how friendship is.

There’s this person who I used to find objectionable, but he turned out to be like a mentor to me. He taught me about ‘investment’ and its relation to friendship. At first, it sounded odd. Investment?! Like what are you talking about? I am not after anything. And I am neither buying friends just so to keep one. Of course I had to allow him to explain, which I did. And now, I know I can never stop thanking him for what he had taught me. He may not know it but, what he taught me is something nobody else had taught me. Not my old friends, not my enemies, not my relatives, not my parents. It’s from someone who I didn’t like before for his attitude. Guess, I was so wrong for clinging to my impression of him. It was very wrong. Still, I walk with my head up and guiltless because once, we talked. That talk means a lot to me. I was able to tell him like straightforwardly how I used to see him and with that I allowed him to show his concern for me.

Investment has nothing to do with being real or not. It’s just knowing where to put your efforts to. Just like in business, you don’t just throw your money to this or that direction without thinking ahead where will it lead you to. Money nowadays is just so damn hard to earn just to waste it away for some nasty scams. So, you study it and you analyze if it is worth the effort. Same with friendship. You can’t just invest your effort on someone when you know your effort is worth your heart. Because the moment you give your heart to someone, you already allow that someone to take a part of you. And you’re not even sure if that part of you which they take with them they will handle with utmost care. It’s risky. In the end, you’re the only one who will get badly hurt. In my case, I always end up like that. And it hurts to think that none can take me as I am.

He’s right. And I have given it a thought. I told you, since that talk, I never stopped thinking and rethinking about how he said those words. I know and I guess everybody knows how brilliant he is. Because he is, indeed, brilliant. He is an experienced man. A man with principles, a man with wisdom and experience. Maybe, he is a true friend. I just didn’t know. Because of all people, I never expected him to be that concerned about my feelings and my condition. Who would really waste effort on someone who is nothing to you? Someone you don’t even get to spend time with, but he? He did that. For whatever reason, I will never have an idea. But how I appreciate it.

A friend is like a mirror. He shows you what is wrong without faking, missing a point or exaggerating. “He” just had to say what he needed to say the way he saw it. One day it’s like I wasn’t looking so good and I just had to look in the mirror. Yes, I saw myself clearly through him. There is something wrong. There is something I could not see so he showed me. Now, I am a learned person. Somehow I know what to do. Somehow, I know what to do.

A FRIEND

I've still been searching
And long have I waited
For someone to like me as me
To laugh with, to cry with
To be just beside with
A friend that's who I need

To fight with, make up with
To know that you need them
Believing that they need you, too
To walk hand in hand with
To argue, to talk with
A friend that's who I need

And even though I make mistakes
And never do anything right
A smile, a hug, can change all that
And everything will be alright

Someone who'll share all my dreams and ambitions
Someone who'll love me as me
I need this person, someone to rely on
A friend that's who I need
A friend that's who I need 

Come in, I've been expecting you

Twas a long day yesterday (thursday, actually). I accompanied mom to Batangas, her father’s hometown. Considering I came from work the night before… I had just a few hours of sleep. I couldn’t sleep because I was anxious of how the day’s going to turn out. Like will I survive the trip? Will I be able to get along with the people there? Was thinking about lotsa things. Twas around 2 in the morning that I was able to finally doze. Only that I kept waking up, checking the time.

I slept on the couch in front of the television. I didn’t turn it off or set it to turn off by itself. I intended not to. Dunno, but, since my office friends told me about ghost stories, I’ve become uncomfortable staying in the living room by myself with the lights off. I couldn’t sleep with the lights on so, I left the television on the whole night.

At past 4am, I started fixing myself after I read mom’s text message telling me we need to leave at 5:30. I didn’t bother taking a long shower anymore. Also, the water’s cold so… The thought of commuting to Batangas alone made me feel sick. She couldn’t bring the car so, we had to put up with the hassles of commuting. I reiterated to myself that I shouldn’t give mom a headache. I secured some finger snacks and candies in case I get dizzy during the 2 and a half hours trip. Oh, did I mention that mom sent me a text message telling me we have to leave at 5:30? She actually, reached my place 7:00. I was able to nap a few times between 5:30 and 7!

The bus ride was not as exhausting. The heat was. Mom kept me entertained with her stories. She’s so loquacious. Don’t get me wrong…it’s actually a compliment. Since, I don’t have anything to talk about, I asked her questions. Different questions like mostly about her relatives who I was about to meet. As if, I’d really remember them all through her stories.

We went straight to the hospital where her lola Pacing is confined. Oh, I haven’t mentioned yet the purpose why we had to go to Batangas (when I should be at home resting). Her aunt, lola Pacing has terminal cancer. Lola Pacing is her father’s older sister. She leaves in the bahay kubo beside a small chapel. Well, that’s the only thing that reminds me of her so, it’s important that I mention it here.

Lola Pacing is a tall woman. It shows in her long arms and legs. When we got inside her room, she was sitting on one side of the bed facing the door. She’s so skinny. Like really skinny…(what should I expect?) Well, it’s lung cancer she’s battling with. We stayed there for some minutes and then left.

The next destination was the bahay kubo (lola Pacing’s house. i call it bahay kubo due to lack of adjectives to use...hehe...it looks like a bahay kubo to me!). There were some people reconstructing it. I think the area also tasted the wrath of the super storm that struck the country a week ago. We stayed in one corner since everyone’s busy doing something. Both men and women there had something to do. Damn, I thought to myself, good for me that I wasn’t born in the province! They are damn assiduous! Gosh! Like they don’t even stop to rest. The women, I noticed, were cooking for the men doing the carpentry. And the weather is damn irritating. Humid and scorching hot. Whew!

I felt a lil bored because although they were talking, I couldn’t understand what they were talking about. Like clueless. Dunno what language (dialect) they’re using. Or they just didn’t want me to understand them? Hmmmm…well of course not! What? scheming not to get me involved in their conversation! That’s pretty petty! Wild imagination you have, paper tiger!

They did try to make me feel comfortable. Like, they set an electric fan right beside me. It helped somehow. Lunch was ready. Mom and I didn’t right off eat. We had the working people eat first. They need food the most. All the while I was thinking how was I going to eat? What was I to take? Oh! I felt so helpless. I didn’t want to make them feel bad or something. I wanted to get along. Good thing they used serving spoons. At least…only whenever they get rice or viands, they just touched the food. Like, they couldn’t help it. Whoa! Please, just let me get mine *sigh*.

I don’t think I will ever survive in the province, really. More observations…but I just don’t want to share them anymore. I mean, people differ because of different factors like upbringing, culture, and what have you… I respect each and every person I meet. Just that I felt weird because that’s not the kind of environment I grew up with. Like, they talk loud…like yelling at each other. I even thought they’re already fighting or something. Oh well…it’s them. But, one thing I can say about Batanguenos…they’re so caring. You’ll always feel their warmth. You’d feel you’re welcome, you won’t feel left out. Something I didn’t feel with dad’s family. There’s close-family-ties.

When I was younger, I often heard about close-family-ties from school. It’s one of the dominant traits of the Filipinos. Hospitality being the first. I just heard about it. But I never knew what it really meant til I met mom’s family and relatives. It’s not just really about staying together or doing things together. It’s actually more than that. There’s a certain bond between them. Something that’s not physical, rather, emotional. It’s an attachment. It’s feeling and caring for one another. And you can truly feel it with them. I can’t really describe it as how I feel it but I hope in case you haven’t experienced what a close-family-ties is, I hope you would. It’s such an experience. Experience is indeed the best teacher.

Animo San Beda!

Finally, the Bedistas won't have to just yell teases and insults like their infamous "pangit kayo, pogi kame" line to every opponent and spectators after losing a game. Because they've already bagged the trophy. Yipee! But I sure will miss them shouting, "iskwater!!". he he Boys will be boys.

I was only able to watch their games live twice (first was the opening, June 24 at Araneta Coliseum and 2nd was during 1st round elimination vs. College of Saint Benilde, July 3). But I never missed a single game (thanks to my video cam). I had a friend recorded all the games of the Red Lions and I watched each game every after my shift. I've learned to love the team since 2000 when Arjun Cordero was still playing for San Beda. I just loved their line up, although they were not able to make it to any championships. I especially admire Bombeo and Hudencial (sorry if I mispelled). And last year, was when I started noticing Yousif Aljamal as a potential MVP. Why, he is so damn handsome! oops. uhm I mean he was a three-point shooter, so I thought he has the potential. Now, although he only won one award since Sam Ekwe swept all the 4 awards, he has proven his worth as a player and bagged the finals MVP award.

When NCAA season 82 started, I was kinda shaky that they might not make it to finals again. But, luckily they fought their way to the championship with just one loss. With the championship that's 2 losses (both defeated by PCU). Coach Koy Banal made a really great work with the team. They just deserve the win. Oh my gosh! After shock is still on the feel til now. I just felt that it's just meant to be. Imagine they already left the Dolphins behind by 20 points but the Dolphins bounced back trimming the lead down to 5 then 3 then 1! Whatta breathtaking game that was! Plus the fact that most of the Red Lions are rookies compared to the vets of PCU who already had tasted how it's like to play in the finals (they were 2004 champions). The Red Lions were only able to make 1 field goal and 1 free throw (by Ekwe) during the last 5 minutes of the 4th quarter while the Dolphins were consistently making points and steals. Damn, that was tough! I was like about to cry. But, luck happened to be on the Lions' side. While Castro relentlessly made points and steals and rebounds for the Dolphins, some erratic players just screwed up and missed their chance of winning. It was really a good game by Dolphins. But, the trophy was really for the Lions. Sorry. The Red Lions won by 1 point, 68-67. It really doesn't matter how many points, anymore. They're the 2006 NCAA champion. True to their battlecry, "END 28 at 82", they made all the Bedistas proud. Congratulations!

Finals scores:

SBC (68)—Aljamal 23, Escobal 15, Angeles 8, Ekwe 7, Menor 5, Evangelista 4, Maggay 2, Hermida 2, Gamalinda 2, Tecson 0, Taganas 0.

PCU (67)—Castro 25, David 10, Belga 9, Espinas 8, Navarro 7, Graham 4, Garrido 2, Amparado 2, Chien 0, McCoy 0, Santos 0, Vidal 0.

Quarterscores: 15-19; 36-30; 61-44; 68-67.

San Beda Red Lions Roster - NCAA Season 82

• Aljamal, Yousif Jr. - Forward (9) (Finals MVP)
  
• Angeles, Alexander - Point Guard (7)
  
• Antonio, Martin Lloyd - Forward (12)
  
• Canlas, Eduardo - Guard
• Ekwe, Samuel - Center (13) (Rookie of the year, Defensive player of the year, Mythical 5 first team and Most Valuable Player)
  
• Escobal, John Paul - Guard
• Espinosa, Kevin - Forward
  
• Evangelista, Micah - Guard
• Gamalinda, Riego - Forward (16)
  
• Hermida, John Carlos Jr. - Point Guard
• Maggay, Raymond - Forward / Center (4)
  
• Menor, Rogemar - Guard / Forward (15)
  
• Taganas, Jay-R - Center (14)
  
• Taupa, Kristoffer - Forward
• Tecson, Eduardo Jr. - Forward (8)
  

• Head Coach : Enrico "Koy" Banal (Coach of the year - 2006)
  

The hours I've spent aren't enough to pay rent...

I could've been a billionnaire or richer by now.

Have you received email messages like this one?


Damn! I hate them. When you receive something like this for the first time and you're desperate or bankrupt, you'd somehow bite into the scheme. Imagine someone offering you to help him keep huge amount of money! On the other hand, you'd think twice. Such a too-good-to-be-true BS! The person doesn't even know you and he's entrusting you millions of dollars! Damn! When a lot of people are wide-eyed dreaming to become wealthy! Rich people are actually too greedy to share their wealth! So, what is this about?!

I've been receiving similar messages for 3 years now. And I hate that I always have to clear my inbox because of spams. Save it. I know you'd suggest that I use the filter option. I already did. Didn't work. What needs to be done is to track down those spammers and put them in prison. ha ha (joke) We can never tell how many people they've already tricked into sending them money for whatever process, they say, needed to transfer the million dollars they're boasting about. Sad thing is, there really are victims of these email scams. Can't blame them. It's hard to earn money.

You would know it's a scam if you see (any of) these:

1. "Awaiting for your kind response" I don't know but these scammers always use this sentence as subject. As soon as you see this, don't think twice...just tick that delete button so you won't get tempted to read through the entire thing and in the end become somewhat convinced it might be for real.

2. Email scam normally includes contact information and if you check the website, it will tell you that it is indeed a legit company. But never never settle just checking their website. If you really want to know whether it is for real or not, go an extra mile and dial the number. It should prove to you what you need to know.

3. It always involves a big time person who had died leaving huge amount of money but no next of kin is known. Isn't that stupid? No relatives whatsoever? Not even a dog?!! No rich person would do without a will ready in case something bad happens to him...idiot scammers! But whatta way to lure.

4. When I say huge amount of money, I mean millions of dollars waiting to be transfered to anyone's bank account. The first of this kind I received involved 60 million something dollars, which according to "David Kangu" (the sender) he was willing to share 10% once I agree to receive using my bank account. That was US$6 000 000! When converted to Philippine peso, it's a whopping 336 000 000. So Too good to be true, aye?!

5. You should also notice how grammatically problematic the email letter is.




Bottom line is...just don't believe in anything that sounds like too-good-to-be-true. You can't just trust anyone who sends you an email asking for assistance involving money. You know if you were in his shoes you wouldn't even tell anyone about the good fortune you just got. Like when you win the lottery. Would you even tell your neighbor you won?! Damn, you're gonna die sooner if you do. Everyone is after a more comfortable life we all know that.

Sometimes Boredom Just Has To Set In

Wishes can come true, aye? How I wish they can! Like that in fairy tales and movies. You wish upon a star…then even the impossible can come true. Of course, this is plainly wishful thinking. How can things in the movies happen in real life? Say, a young man walking in a busy street then suddenly he bumps into a beautiful girl but the girl went away, swiftly. He go search for her all over but he couldn’t see her anymore in the crowd but he keeps on looking. The scene ends there with the hopeless guy standing in the middle of the street with both hands on his head, dismayed, he wasn’t able to ask for the girl’s name. She remains on his memory til one day they meet again.

How unrealistic. Especially if it happens in New York or any major city with a population double its size. I dunno, but in my life, so far, I haven’t really experienced seeing one person in this place and then the next two days or maybe a week, I’d see the person again in another place or the same place. *thinks* Hmmm… yeah, it really never happened to me yet. And hopefully if it’ll ever happen, crossed fingers, I hope the guy who I saw in Jollibee-kalentong last week (September 9) would be the one I’d always chance upon in that corner where I first saw him. *day dreams*

That was a Sunday. It was not a very good day since my day started with sad news. Let’s just not discuss about it anymore. *sigh* It was around 1:20 in the afternoon, inside a cab, I was leaning by the window, staring at just about anything. When I noticed this pretty boy already staring at me. He was in a jeep at the rear end. His eyes were wonderful. I loved the way he stared at me. Yes, I stared back. For about less than 30 seconds we were just staring at each other until the cab moved forward leaving the jeep behind.

I didn’t look back. What for? The 30 second attraction won’t have any continuation because I don’t believe what the movies are instilling into the viewers’ minds --- that love conquers all. That a guy would really exert effort to find a girl stranger just because he falls madly in love with her at the first glance. Now, I know some of you would react on this statement. You’re welcome. But lemme tell you that this is just my personal belief. My experiences are different from your experiences and maybe…one day…I’d start believing that love can do so much…if I get to experience your experience. But for now, I just don’t believe a lot of things.

C’mon now! I am not bitter or something ...this is the reality I know.

What if I see him again? This time we get to talk (which is impossible because he saw me inside the cab. Unless he waits for me everyday in that corner and when he sees me he’d jump off the curb and stop the cab right at the middle of the narrow street) then he gets my number and all that. OOOohhhh it’s damn hard to explain! But my point is, attraction (physical) is just attraction. The moment I find an imperfection in him or him in me, that’s the end of it. Unless, if what they say is “true love” works for us, maybe we can move on to another stage. I know what you’re thinking…I am sooo skeptical! All I can say is, “Don’t judge a blogger by his/her blog!”

Picture this…he would wait there everyday, right at that stinking corner crammed full of light posts, sign posts etc…just to see me again. Is that even sensible? When there’s what? Zero probability that he’d ever chance upon me again! …Ok, I’ll try to be a little positive… he is really that attracted to me that he couldn’t sleep at night and his eye bags are now prominent. So, he waits in that corner EVERYDAY. Like his got all the time in the world to waste away! (Here I go again) Then one lucky day, he spots me inside a cab, but the cab is moving fast. What he do, he jumps off the street and stands in the way of the cab. So, the driver hits on the breaks then the cab’s tires ear splittingly squeak that people around check to see what happened. He stands there half an inch away from the cab’s mouth. That’s the scene. Isn’t this familiar? For some seconds he remains right there. Everything’s immobilized. No reaction from the driver when in real life, the driver could’ve had already yelled curses at him. And since we’re at the middle of a narrow street, traffic starts to build up causing more irate people. Only because of what? So, no. I just don’t believe he even thought about it even for a sec. So, delete all that stupid imagination! But hey! There’s nothing wrong in wishing. *wink*

What a crap! Here’s some trivia so this’ll make sense:

~No word in the English language rhymes with month, orange, silver, and purple.

~"Rhythms" is the longest English word without the normal vowels, a, e, i, o, or u.

~The last thing to happen is the ultimate. The next-to-last is the penultimate, and the second-to-last is the antepenultimate.

~The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

~The ridges on the sides of coins are called reeding or milling.

~The two lines that connect your top lip to the bottom of your nose are known as the philtrum.

~The white part of your fingernail is called the lunula.

~An albatross can sleep while it flies. It apparently dozes while cruising at 25 mph.

~Dragonflies are one of the fastest insects, flying 50 to 60 mph.

~All clams start out as males; some decide to become females at some point in their lives. (COOL!)