Sunday, May 7, 2023

Revisiting My Green Room: Returning After a 3-Year Hiatus

I've chosen to resume blogging after a three-year sabbatical. It's been a long time since I've written a post, and I'll confess that I was a little hesitant to get back into it. After much thought, I concluded that I missed the creative outlet that blogging gave, and I wanted to share my experiences with you all once more.

I began writing as a way to express myself. After that... I somehow intended it to be a platform for me to express my thoughts, ideas, and faith with a bigger audience. To be honest, I wasn't expecting to gain a massive following. I am terrified of being opposed to and judged. It's well recognized that when you make your life narrative public, you essentially give others permission to criticize your every move and I don't like to give people that free pass. Who does, right? But, I suppose, it's one of the simplest forms of self-expressionIntroverts' Way. So... 

However, life intervened and I found myself putting my blog on the back burner. I hadn't realized how much I had missed it until recently. Yet, something tells me that it's a dead platform. So, I've been thinking about starting a vlog for years. In fact, I didn't actually think vlogging would catch on, though I was told it would. Someone suggested that I start one in 2014. Maybe it's simply not my personality so I gave a nod. I mean, I'd done TV shows, hosting, modeling, and others. Vlogging, on the other hand, makes me feel egotistical as I stare and chat to the camera by myself. To me it feels awkward.

It's already 2023... Looking back, I should have begun monetizing my social media platforms through vlogging sooner. 💭

Returning to blogging after such a lengthy gap was difficult, but I believe it was well worth the effort. I'm not sure how difficult it is to produce vlogs. I believe blogging is easier for me because I don't have to struggle when I'm introvert-ing. Even in that state, I can write. While it would need far more from me than I am capable of giving if I forced myself to vlog. I could give up on it shortly! While having a blog is like having a public journal where erasures are ok. Of course, this is my preference so maybe I am speaking with bias.

I like the idea of learning more about myself and my thoughts by writing. There were even occasions when I appeared to be arguing with myself. You know that moment when you realize you said something not so brilliant, but you only realize it after you have completed a few paragraphs? So, with a better idea, you kind of want to retract what you just said without having to delete the previous one in long paragraphs because you think you wrote it well?! 😂 I mean it helps me to evaluate what I believe in. Helps me grow as a person.

All of us desire to occasionally share our experiences with others. We find means to share our feelings about significant life events, our opinions on hot-button topics, or even merely to share our experiences as we try out new activities. For a variety of reasons, we wish to share life with others. It seems to be an inherent aspect of our relational nature as humans. So, I also have it.

While returning to blogging after such a long break was a bit daunting, it was definitely the right decision for me. I'm excited to see where this journey takes me and look forward to connecting with others along the way. AND, I hope not to take another long break again! 😂

Saturday, May 6, 2023

Another Year of Gratitude: A Birthday Reflection

As my birthday on April 20 drew near, I couldn't help but reflect on the years that had passed and all the people who had supported me through the highs and lows. I am deeply grateful for all the blessings that have come my way, and by "blessings" I mean the individuals that God has placed in my life.

Although not all of my experiences over the past several years have been pleasant, I am thankful for the lessons I have learnt from the difficulties and setbacks. And even from my own imprudence and recklessness. I've learned to view unpleasant situations as worthwhile lessons and to rely on my support system through trying times, which is primarily God and the people He sent in each circumstance I've encountered. I am appreciative of everyone He utilized to amplify all else He has already given me. This enabled me to appreciate the rewards and beauty of relationship.

I am incredibly appreciative of all the individuals and events that have aided my development as an individual as I reflect on the previous years. I am grateful for every blessing in my life, from the open doors and windows that have come my way to the network of support that I have. I will carry this thankfulness with me as I go onward and work to pay it forward by offering a positive impact and influence on others.

God's gracious hand is upon me, indeed! And may His hand continue to remain on me, to guide me in all my ways.


A Love with a promise of permanence.

"...if any hear MY voice and open the door,  I will come into their house and eat with them,  and they will eat with ME." ...