I don't mind being sexy and girlish and womanly...

Everyone wants to have an attractive body. I included. Especially, I will become one of the most coveted models of those popular glossy magazines in the country. (yeah, yeah…dream on!)

That’s why I am currently on a very strict diet. But, no matter how strict as I describe it to be, there is no way I will survive the day without nibbles. GRRR! I wish they will be banned here in the country. Waaaahhhh!!!

And really, dieting requires so much discipline. Not that I have little or none of it. Just that, whenever I see someone eating, I’d get enticed to grab a bite, too. I miss pizza, pasta and rice. Poor me. But, I have to remind myself that it paid off. Just look at my tummy. *enthusiastic smile* You will agree with me.

You might be asking how did I achieve that flat abdomen? No, I did not touch the picture. Honestly. No PhotoShop was used to make that effect. It’s authentic! Fwahahaha. (For a lack of better term.) Well, that was not really the result of the “strict dieting”. It was because of the 3 day extreme depression from April of this year.

No. I won’t talk about it anymore. Just find out for yourself. What? Should I spoon feed everything to you? Why not browse my blog and learn why? Hehehe Just a suggestion. Don’t be scared. I did not intend to frighten you. As if I can kill you if you choose not to, right? That’s just if you want to know. *wink*

So, obviously what I will blab about today is about ways to lose weight...Some, I have tried. Some I just read about it.

You know what is the best way to lose weight?

Starve yourself.

Yes, that is very effective…only it is unhealthy. bwahaha!!! It could kill (worst case, of course). Seriously, I tried starving myself in the past after gaining so much weight. In great desperation, I must say.

The only things I ate during those episodes of food deprivation were crackers. What made it tough for me was the feeling inside the stomach. Can anyone relate to what am saying? It feels warm as if something’s boiling inside. Then, Id hear my stomach growling loudly that the other person (and even the other person beside him) beside me can hear it. Hehe. That one.

Green Tea...nah-uh!
Defintely NOT for me!

…and yeah, I used to drink tea, too. But, how I hate the taste. Am not a lover of tea so forgive me if I said this. Not that am saying it tastes awful. To me, it is. Hehe. Sorry, am just being real honest. I tried putting some honey. I also don’t like honey. *sobs* It would take me 3 hours to drink a cup of tea, y’know. It’s like am being punished or something.

At the same time, I worked out, as well. I have this step exercise equipment. Used to be a loyal user of it. One sunny day, after deciding that I should start working out again, I took it off the old chest, which was in the basement. It was dusty and had lotsa cobwebs. This is an exaggeration, of course.

There are just so many ways to lose weight. Countless, actually. Tried a few and so far, everything worked. At least, for me, so don’t quote me saying that ‘any diet will work for everyone’. I think it also depends on one’s body type.

I found out about “Blood Type Diet”. Only a small percentage knows about this. Perhaps, those who are like me who never stop looking for a more effective way to lose the excess fats and maintain a well proportioned body have come across this type of diet plan.

Basically, it’s just choosing the right food for your blood type. Yes, you read it right. According to the author, there are certain foods that can’t be properly digested by some blood types. Say, I am a type A, I cannot properly digest rice and red meat such as pork and beef).

Want to know more? Check this website.

How can I forget about the more popular diet plans like South Beach and Atkins? They are all effective, I must say. It all depends on how well you follow through the plan. Takes a lot of discipline, determination and dedication.

Did you make the same mistake, too?

Sometimes, when I have this urge to eat, I just do Atkins. I eat small portions and then perform workout to burn calories. It’s very basic. I think, this is the best way to lose weight since, you won’t have to deprive yourself of your favorite foods. Anyone who agrees with me, raise your hand. *wink* But, of course, great discipline is involved. Just eat small portions and make sure to exercise.

The idea is to program your system to eat just enough food. In fact, during the first phase of this type of diet program, a participant is allowed to eat whatever he wishes to. But, of course, there is an equivalent workout to follow for every type of food consumed. Sounds good if you have spare time to waste away doing a physical activity.

Yeah, I almost forgot, it’s a low-carb diet. A participant should cut down on carbohydrates.

I am not promoting any diet program, ok? This is just to lay some options for you. You may or may not join any diet programs. There are reliable websites that can provide you information about different weight loss programs. If you get to understand the logic behind each, you can opt to do it on your own. But, you won’t have a nutritionist to guide you which foods to eat, though. Anyway, it’s not such a problem since, like what I said, everything’s on the net. Just GOOGLE it.

Another diet plan that promises remarkable result (they say, it should make you lose 10 pounds in a week) is the Cabbage Soup Diet. In 7 days, all that you will eat is …what else? …the Cabbage Soup! It’s a nightmare, though. But, if you are determined (like if you badly need to lose weight after having been offered to be the next month’s UNO Magazine’s model), then nothing can/should stop you. Actually, you may just opt to starve yourself eventually. If you ask me, the idea makes me nauseous.

I recently tried, Oatmeal diet. All I ate for a couple of weeks was oats! Of course, there were times when I added some things on it. Don’t ask what. Hehe But, the monotonous routine, of course, eventually driven me to pine for delectable treats.

Yes, it did help me lose weight significantly. *wink* Here’s a pretty good read to convince you.

Aside from the diet programs, there are exercise programs that can truly help you achieve the body you’ve always dreamed of. You need not be envious of those very skinny runway and magazine models, anymore.

Most of us (mostly girls) have problems with our abdomens. Flabby and ugly love handles! Disgusting! Some have lotsa stored fats around the thighs. Yuck! What an ugly sight, right?

Does this help increase your motivation?

Sadly, there is no exercise to specifically target certain areas like what I just mentioned. There is no better way but to dedicate oneself on regular cardio exercises. Some of the best cardio exercises include running, biking and swimming.

Interval training is also one good way to start giving your body a fresh new look. Of course, it will take time. It is not an instant result, come on! It takes patience and great motivation to attain that body you wish for. Set your expectations low because for some people, it takes really long to notice a positive outcome. Who knows, you’re one of them?!!! *devilish laugh* So, just keep on. *wink*

Interval training is a kind of workout practice involving intense exercise periods followed by low intensity periods. Basketball is a good example. (My favorite sport)

Try running really fast for about 2 minutes and then slow down. It’s better if you stop for a few minutes and then repeat the routine. It will surely help you burn calories and at the same time, increase your metabolism.

To learn the basics read here.

It’s also helpful if you do resistance workout and weight lifting.

Ok, I will share with you the best advice I can give… There are actually three things that you need to do to make sure you get rid of fats.

1. You have to change your eating habits and be watchful of your calorie intake. As much as possible, eat plenty of vegetables and fruits. Avoid those that are high in carbs, though.

2. You have to exercise regularly. Keep moving. Take at least 10 minutes of walking everyday. In stead of using the elevator, use the stairs. Especially, if you have time. Hahaha Good luck to those who have to climb the 20th floor!

3. You have to live a healthy lifestyle. Healthy lifestyle means, get enough sleep, avoid too much stress, quit smoking and drink occasionally (if you can’t really stop).

These are just basics. It is, of course, important to do your own research. Learn and don't be discouraged.

More reads:

EHow - How To Lose Weight

Net Doctor - How To Lose Weight The Healthy Way?

How To Lose Weight Tips

Pornography is a satire on human pretensions.

Twas a lonely and dull night last Wednesday. There was nothing to do. My eyes were actually dropping but my mind was unwilling to sleep. Didn't get enough shuteye previous to that night, so, was kinda wondering how come I was wide-awake.

Unfortunately enough, the cable's not cooperating with me. There was nothing good to watch and I ended up watching local channels. As I scan the channels, I bumped into this "debate" show on GMA 7. Didn't get the title, though. I believe the topic was about pornography vs. art. (maybe it's not but it's what's being discussed when I ran into it.)

Of course, who could be the better guest but Asia Agcaoili? Kristine Reyes, younger sister of Ara Mina, was there with another sexy actress turned comedienne, Laureen Larazabal (correct me if I said her name wrong or misspelled it). That's it. I have nothing more to say.

JOKE.

There were sociologists, of course...and the hosts. hahaha Plus the studio audience.




Asia Agcaoili
I find this 'non-porno'.



Seriously now, the show was nothing edifying. Was expecting every guest to be pragmatic with their responses. Turned out that the sexy actresses won the debate without sweat (at least before I slumbered due to disappointment).

Asia was the most outspoken person in the show. Well, I think the question was very basic. "How can you differentiate pornography from art?"

None of the sociologist guests were able to clearly define the two. Which was kinda weird for me. One of them said that it's porno when the girl feels bad about what she's doing. Another point given was that it's porno when the photo's 'obscene'. Yet, the definition of obscene was not even clearly stated. booh.

The first thing that popped into my head when I heard the question was this,

"a photo can be categorized as porno when there's suggestive gestures and facial expressions".

It's as simple as that.

"Any pose that arouses sexual fantasies is considered porno".

Another thing is,

"which magazine is the photo intended for? FHM, which is short for For Him Magazine"

...tell me now what kind of mag is it?

Both FHM and Maxim are men's magazines. What the hell are men's magazine for?! Now, tell me whether it's porno or not.

FYI:

Pornography is defined as "any sexually explicit writing and/or picture intended to arouse sexual desire."

I think I have already given my point.

Am not really sure what's the topic about but this is what I had seen and it kinda frustrate me that none of the professionals were able to give a clear statement about the issue. It doesn't really matter what reasons those girls have for posing for those magazines, the question was ...are their photos considered porno?!

Who wouldn't want to celebrate the beauty of one's own body? ...and flaunt it. I do. But, well, posing for men's magazine is another story. For me, it's sort of a more 'decent' prostitution. Only because there's no physical contact. But, it's basically the same.

Am not against women posing for men's magazine, don't get me wrong. I respect their decisions and I am in no position to question their judgment and character. There really might be weightier reasons why they chose to.




Christine Reyes



...if I will be offered another of the similar opportunity, who knows I might grab it this time? I don't want people to judge me for my decision. And having said all these things, I clearly have shared with you my two cents thoughts on the issue. Well, not because people do what they do, means, they're for it. If I will ever pose for men's magazine, it's not that I decided to celebrate the beauty of my body like Kristine's argument. Nor because I was given no other alternative. Whatever my reason will be, I believe I don't owe anyone an explanation.

fwahahahaha I sound like so serious.

I have to quote what Kristine said. On the other hand, I can't/won't ...might get sued for defamation. Ok, she just said that in the future she wants her children to see how beautiful she was when she was younger. She won't be ashamed for taking that decision, ever.

Asia later added that folks have always been telling her (verbally) how beautiful their bodies were during their younger years blah blah...but it's all talks. No proof. At least, their photos will serve as their proofs for their stories. True, right? They can laminate their photos or preserve the mags. And voila! There's evidence.




Maureen Larrazabal



Am swaying from the reason why am ranting. Ok...will maneuver back to it.

I just couldn't understand why those professionals weren't able to say the obvious facts. It's as simple as this. They posed for a men's mag. Ok, there's still distinction between a men's and a porno mag. Ok, ok. Well, browse those men's mag and check if the above definition for "pornography" is not incorporated in each men's mags' contents.

Let's be realistic now. There's no point being defensive. I think porn mags are just an exaggerated pieces showing rather excessively indecent photos and articles. But, both cause sexual arousal.

Come on now, guys! Admit it.

Contemporary dictionaries give a very different definition: today pornography is considered ‘obscene material whose intention is to provoke sexual arousal’.

- Excerpt from Oxford University

Now, another question arises. How is "obscene" defined?

Here's what I found from the net:

1. Offensive to accepted standards of decency or modesty.
2. Inciting lustful feelings; lewd.

* Taken from The American Heritage Dictionary

And here's another one:

The Supreme Court has established that, to be obscene, material must meet a three-pronged test:

* An average person, applying contemporary community standards, must find that the material, as a whole, appeals to the prurient interest;
* The material must depict or describe, in a patently offensive way, sexual conduct specifically defined by applicable law; and
* The material, taken as a whole, must lack serious literary, artistic, political, or scientific value.

Well, I have given my opinion. Maybe, it's up to you now how you view it.

If I will pose for a men's magazine, what will you think of me? Will you stare at me with so much lust while imagining me on the centerfold? Will you just appreciate my body's beauty without malice? Without getting aroused?

Just answer truthfully. Come on!

hahaha

Anyway, share what you think. The blog entry doesn't end with my opinion. *wink* Share your thoughts.

How can you tell pornography from art?

Standing on the sidelines, waving and grinning.

Dumped: (adj.) throw something out as unwanted: to get rid of something that is unwanted, especially by taking it and leaving it somewhere.

Synonyms: discarded, forsaken, derelict, vacant, neglected, cast off, empty

~ My Green Room ~ is still one of the featured blogs at BlogDumps and nothing's changed, am still happy and bouncing around. What's the drama up there, then?

Well, I signed up on Blog Catalog about two days ago. Just less than 5 minutes ago, I received an email telling me that my blog submission was...




*ouch*


What is wrong with my blog?!!! *frantic mode*

So, I went on to check. It's unbelievable! How could this happen to me and my blog?! I am so devastated.

Hmmm...I would understand if they declined it for my choice of words, or because my ideas are "BS". I will wholeheartedly accept that. But, NO. They have other reasons.

Seeing this as the subject of the email...

BlogCatalog - Submission Declined: ~ My Green Room ~

My heart was torn into pieces. *faints*

Any idea, what their reason is? Check the image below.




Yes! It is a gigantic mistake! *frustrated*



Yes. After a year of blogging, I never knew there was even a single pornographic material some where around here. * looks around* Maybe, posting my yellowish, round face is already a porno. Is it? *sobs*

...Or is it my flat tummy?!

Anyway, life's like that. *showing a fake smile* (Victor, am following your advice.) *Smiling forcefully* (Just imagine how I look like)

Am I funny or what? As if, it's such a big loss, right?! fwahahaha

As I was writing typing this, Blog Catalog sent me another email. This time, informing me that my blog's already approved. Were they trying to dupe me? *scratches head*

There's no more to blog about, then. Problem solved. blah blah blah

Thanks, Blog Catalog, for approving my blog submission. I have another widget to add to my already cluttered page. Just bear with me loyal readers. Am such a collector. *wink*

And yeah, before I forget, there might be a time when you check my blog and, in stead, you're directed to an unfamiliar blog. Don't worry. It's my blog ...with a totally different outfit.

Yes, I am changing its look. So, don't get tired of visiting my blog. You've seen its birth, you've seen it blossom (with so many chicklets and widgets), support it all the way. *big smile*


Note: Nonsense, I know. But, hey! It's 1st of August. At least, I have a blog entry first day of the month. *wink*

This is just so in demand. Sorry.

Am evil mean.

I won't just give up. I really had to find that video where Beyonce tumbled down the stairs during a concert. Bwahaha!

After a couple of tries getting results like this...

Singer Requests Video Of Fall Not Be Posted On YouTube

and this...


This video has been removed due to terms of use violation.

I finally found one. La-lala-lala...*whistles*

YouTube failed to keep the videos, yes. But, CNN still has it. *devilish grin*

Here it is. Enjoy!

Part of being sane is being a little bit crazy.

I "dumped" my blog onto Blog Dumps a few weeks ago and guess what?

...No, am not gonna tell you just yet. Why don't you check..."what?"

What is Blog Dumps, btw?! Well, if you want to increase the traffic in your blog, then by all means find ways to get traffic. Blog dumps is just one of the many ways to do so. *wink*

Ok, now you have a clue.

YES!! Blog dumps featured my blog and luckily, twas placed conveniently at the top. I mean, of course, next to the title and tabs. hehe

Maybe my tummy helped. What d'ya think?! *wink* Whatever! All I know is that I am happy. *big smile*




Yehey!

So, are you ready to dump your blog? It's just easy as riding a bike. Go to this link and then scroll down til you see a form. There are also cutie widgets there with codes which you can add to the sidebar of your blog. It should only take a day or two for Blog Dumps to approve your blog.

Just sharing.

And to add to that... Am richer again by two million five hundred dollars! I dunno but I keep winning UK lottery draws. How lucky can I get, right? Imagine, I don't do lotto (even local) and yet I win it. Who can ever be more lucky than me?!

Grrr...Only wish they're for real. Who knows? fwahaha. Am the richest person in the world.

I didn't post the image here because it's kinda blurry. Pointless to paste when you can't read the words anyway. Thing is, there are just so many scams roaming around the Net nowadays. What's annoying is that they love my email so much. Call it favoritism...only I do NOT appreciate it. blah blah blah


...and that's just one of the many notices I have received in the past months. Am pleading to the Scammy community to stop making me richer than I already am. Dunno where else to store my wealth, anymore.

Maybe I better invest in FrancSwiss. *grins*

Ok, ok...Enough of the craps. And let's talk about Beyonce. Have you heard...? For sure, all showbiz freaks out there have already heard about her nasty fall. It happened during her concert in Orlando, Florida.

I was so eager to see what really happened but when I checked with YouTube, it's already inaccessible. In stead, this is what's showing...

This video is no longer available due to a copyright claim by Sony BMG.

Oh well. Of course, Beyonce was spared of more embarrassment.


By the way. Thanks to all patient people who keep dropping by my "magazine-like" (as how one of my visitors put it) blog. You are the reason that I still post here. hahaha (joke of course! I love blogging, y'know.)

This message made me smile, seriously. *smiles with passion*

Where is it located? It can be reached by Email right?
...Do you work in a McDonald branch?

He's talking about my hometown -- Heard and McDonald Islands. Awww. Everybody's wondering where I grew up. Don't worry, will talk about my hometown next time. Just have to think wittingly how to describe it in a very interesting and animated way. You just don't have any idea how I used to live a humdrum life. Well..you shall soon find out.

...and he really thought I was working at McDonald's? *LOL*


Here's another one...

"tama ba diba dati kulot kulot buhok mo pero mabait ka nun kita mo tanda ko pa last name mo"

(translation: You used to have curly hair, right? But, you were kind. See? I can still remember your last name.)


Yeah yeah..after he said my last name's "Sta. Maria" (on the subject field)! He really remembered me. *ROL* I wonder if he was just trying to make me laugh or what.

This is the girl he's talking about.

Well, I have already shown a photo of myself when I wrote about those two overweight aunts who compared me to Iwa Moto. But, I won't mind showing you my photo AGAIN.

Am so pretty! *adores self*

I just need my identity back. *sobs* I am NOT her. *howls*

blah blah blah

Everybody's been writing about Hollywood gossips. Hmmm...what can I write about? *thinks* Am not so much into entertainment...esp not gossips. I, myself, am very controversial so...no NEED. But, ok. Lemme try.


I haven't really told anyone that I am an avid fan of Mr. Bean. Have been spying on him lately and I couldn't believe that he has already found a new love interest. (Like it that am working as a paparazzi. And it is not just a past time.) So, whatever happened to Irma? And who is this girl he's hooking up with lately? hmmm

Mr. Bean found his new love interest!

Will find out soon. So, stick with me.

Money is the root of all evil. For more information, send $10 to me.

What if you can see a few minutes into the future? Would you consider it a good deal?

As I was watching the film, "Next", I was wishing I had the same gift, too. In stead of just second guessing what my intuition is telling me. On the other hand, I thought it's rather a torment if ever. Imagine yourself seeing a few minutes of what's going to happen to you. Frightening.

Yes, you can change your destiny and all (like, you can sure win the lottery, right?) but wouldn't it be like a curse as well? ...Seeing what is about to happen to you. Like you are going to be hit by a bus or something. Geesh. Dunno how to handle that.

The character, Cris Johnson, has that gift since he was 3. Well, twas not anymore such a tough thing for him since he's been dealing with that gift for a long time. But, was kinda thinking how was it like during the first times he had experienced it? And at age 3!

I specifically like the choreography during the getaway scenes inside the casino. Hehe. The securities kept missing him by a nanosecond. Clever! fwahaha.

Love the movie because it's meticulously done. Like we timed everything... how he'd foreseen the future. Twas all less than 2 minutes. Well calculated. hehehe Besides the fact that I love Nicolas Cage. (Only he's received so many disparages for all the films he recently did.) Some graphics were a bit obvious, though, but it's pardonable.

However, many film critics gave it a C minus. Awww...

Basically, I just like the film because of my interest in learning about how to make use of my intuition effectively. And am still finding more information.

Also seen "Stranger Than Fiction". Quite a unique story about an IRS agent -- Harold Crick. Twas actually an adaptation of a Spanish novel, Niebla written by Miguel Unamuno.

Harold was a time freak.. and then one day he suddenly heard a voice narrating his life. Freaky! The author was a woman and she also spoke of his imminent death. Which is even more freaky!!! Grrr!!!

It's entertaining (for me).

...Enough of movies now.

Bad news for Bedistas. Letran defeated the Red Lions yesterday by one point! *sobs real hard* I know...I know.. OA! Hehehe.

Wasn't able to watch the game so I had to check with Inbound Pass. According to their report, Ekwe was fouled out in the third quarter, which made it easy for the Knights to attack. But, the win actually happened a few seconds before the end of the fourth quarter when Guevarra made a two points shot with only 3.2 seconds left. Frustrating! GRRRrrr!!!

Well, the game was great! It's a game to watch, actually. Will check if there's a video of this game on YouTube.

Letran did a very good job and, in fact, we actually thought they will really give the Red Lions a hard time. True enough.

The Quarter Scores: 12-23; 27-34; 50-44; 70-69

Next San Beda game will be on ... No announcement yet from Inbound Pass. hehehe


It made me smile that someone took time to learn about my hometown -- Heard and McDonald Islands. hihihi Cute! I appreciate it, Victor. Will share with you his message...

~~~~~~~~~~~

i've been reading up on those islands, and it seems at least you have penguins and seals to keep you company :D the terrain is said to be harsh though. so i'm guessing you were hurt or something so you just wanted to be a hermit basically and be far from human contact altogether? ;)

~~~~~~~~~~~

I'd say, nice hypothesis! hihihi


Anyway, want to show you my work of art. Just please don't say any more comment. If you don't/can't appreciate them, stay quiet. Keep your fingers away from your keyboards and just browse down if you can't stand the sight, ok?!

Obviously this is Winnie the Pooh! hehehe

Winnie with Piglet...




Love the sight of sunset...hmmm is this even sunset?!!!




Just anything I thought of.




Forgot who this is. Just copied from a magazine.





Love this one a lot!





Odie! My fave cartoon dog.





Fishie fish...
Am reminded of Ernie (from Sesame Street) when he was fishing.




Just a villain character. Have I mentioned that
I dream to portray a villain role?




Eagle. Copied from Philippine Almanac.

My doodlings... hehehe

Can't find my sketch pad. Awww... So, this is all I can show you for now. *frowns*

Finally, a response from Marc.

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i don't believe that you should stop caring for people too much, it's a trait everyone should have. just imagine if everyone is like you, we'll live in a more caring world. but love and compassion starts with oneself and you should never allow anyone to take advantage of you.

i sense you have a big heart and tend to give much of yourself to others. the detriment of that is expecting others to reciprocate the love and affection you give which always doesn't happen and you feel used and abused. this is exactly what i meant when i told you in my earlier message that life is not fair. giving too much of yourself is free will and is its own reward. expecting others always to give in return will surely disappoint you.

~~~~~~~~~~~

Thank you Marc. *smiles*

...Have a wonderful day y'all! *waves*

Status: Trying hard to stay positive.

I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce.

NOTHING APPEARS.

I give up. It won't really work! Grrr. Hmp! Well, just tick on the link, then, and make yourself laugh.

Watch the video here >>> Spelling Bee Word: Sardoodledom

Stumbled upon this funny video. A black boy at a spelling bee kept laughing over (to him) a funny sounding word -- Sardoodledom.

Dunno about you but this made me laugh. ROL.

Well, I get to laugh at funny sounding (tagalog) words, too.

...like "lapis" (pencil), "sinandomeng" (a type of rice) fwahahaha!!! "gooshgooshin" (in rags) ROL ... "alibocboc" (dust), "sipilyo" (toothbrush), "bisuyas" (onion), "tookmol" and "ugok" (pronounced with a certain passion...I completely have no idea what the words mean!!!)

(The last two words I always hear from Hippo, Kalbo -- another funny sounding word!!! -- and Lizzie. hehehe)

But, they (the words) all sound funny to me!!! Fwahahaha

I can't think of any other tagalog words that I find funny. Am trying to think but nothing really comes out. Hmmm

If you guys have any funny sounding words to share...tagalog, Japanese, English... just post them here and let's laugh at them together. bwahahahaha!!!

Anyway, maybe next time I hear some things, I'll write them down. Will collect lotsa funny sounding tagalog words, compile them and post them all here.

...or better yet, I'll make a book. The title would be "Paper Tiger's Laughable Words". What d'ya say?!!! *grins*

But, sardoodledom? Hmmm... well, Answers.com defines it as "a melodramatic plot". It didn't sound so funny to me since am a bit acquainted with obsolete words. Anyway, at least the boy had his more than 15-minute-fame, right?

But, I really laughed while I was watching the video cause I could see myself in him. And how my friends, my mom and my siblings would guffaw when I start laughing as I hear funny sounding tagalog words. *embarrassed* ...Especially when watching a tagalog show or telenovela. *cheeks turning pinkish*

Well, there are just words that are hard to pronounce. I have heard many Americans that can't pronounce "hospitable" properly. Life's just like that! *wink *wink*


Well...so much for laughing...


Uhm, I dunno how to take this. When I am mad and I express it ...whether in writing or verbally... people laugh. Grrr!!! What's that about, huh?!! *wonders*

My ex, Piggy, when we chat and I'd express my irritation to a comment he makes, in stead of backing off, he would laugh. Like with all pleasure! Even when I am already up in arms! Grrr...What is the matter with him?


Bobitch, too! Hmp! I remember when I was still in AMN... he did crazy, irritating things to piss me and even when I was already annoyed and complaining, he just wouldn't stop and even cackled! Duh!


There's this certain Victor who read my blog entry "Everyone has the right to be stupid, but you are abusing the privilege!"

He finds my way of ranting amusing. Fwahahaha!!! Here's his comment.

"btw nice blog, was grinning throughout your rant about the pink high heels/iwa look-alike incident. lol you're cute when you're mad.

keep cool!"

Cute when am mad?!!! Huh?! So, that's why Piggy and Bobitch were laughing at me when am expressing anger, huh? Is this right? Is this for real? *scratches head with all ten fingers*

Thanks a lot Victor! First, for reading my blog...second, for grinning the entire time you were reading my ramblings! Is there a third? hmmm... Yes. Third, for leaving a comment (if you're Anonymous).


That's all for now.

Judge me all you want, but keep the verdict to yourself.

Grrr!!! This is the 2ndth time!

Was about to post my today's entry when Pee-Cee froze. Grrr!!! &*#%^$!!! How about that?!! Anyway...

Here's what I was to say...

Lila kept telling me, now and again..."You have a pure heart, Siobe." (Yes, she calls me Siobe. Cute!) "You are susceptible to abuse. You are an easy target."

Yves told me the same, too. Guess, they're both right.

..and Rellie sent me this quote...(thanks for staying in touch, Rellie.)

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"Other people's opinion of you doesn't have to become your reality.
Those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it.
I don't know the key to success,
but one key to failure is to please everyone.
So, why waste time about what others will tell you?
In stead, do what makes you happy."

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Sensible, right?

Oh, how I looovvve quotes! Wish it's just easy to adapt them. Only it's not. Takes lotsa time and sad experiences.

Now, what's there for me to do is to adapt all the learnings and stop being ME. Maybe, I should start being the protagonist. What d'ya think?! *wink*

Sounds like a very interesting role, now. Bwahahaha!!! Be afraid...be VERY AFRAID!!

About the quote Rellie sent me...it's not that I was trying to please people. Nor am I still trying. Let's just say that I was just cautious of what people will perceive of me.

...Only to find out that no matter what I do, people are always going to talk. There is NOTHING that I can do about that. People love to gossip (surprisingly, even MEN!!!). People are quick to judge. For what ever reason they are fond of saying ugly things about others. Whatta vicious habit!!

Well, there is really only ONE reason.

Twas such a WASTE of time, effort and emotions. Talk about making wise investments! (Thanks Zee)

WHEW!!!

Now, I can say I am much wiser. *bites nails* Wait...what did I just say?! Hope I can really put my learnings to practice. Geesh!

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Life is a dance step that never goes out of style.
Sometimes you stumble, sometimes you hurt someone.
But oftentimes, you must learn new steps to survive.

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Finally, I also have to include this message sent by Marc (through Friendster)...

"life is not fair, people will do cruel things toward one another, that's just the way it is, it's a fact of life. but part of healing is realizing that once you've forgiven someone you lift that burden you've been carrying.

and then, there are people (former friends) i just stay away from and keep them out of my life. if these same people give you nothing but heartaches and pains, just give them up. if they make you unhappy, you don't need them. if it's family, you're up shit creek without a paddle - just kidding.

there is this saying "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me". once i've been done wrong by a person, even someone close to me, i'm more careful, wary, and not as trustful towards that person. i keep them closer to keep an eye on them.

... you express yourself well and i surmise you have a logical train of thought. i would like to correspond with you some more and hopefully, we can get to know each other."

Excuse me, have you seen my sanity? I think I lost it.

I think I have to start with this...

Warning: Get a pillow and a teddy to hug because this is going to make you sleepy. (I bet) Good luck and sweet dreams! hihihi

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So, what do you do when you are filled with emotions? But the emotions are rather unpleasant...? They say, do not dwell on negative things. In stead, think of happy thoughts. Focus on things that make you smile to shift your attention from the situation that's causing sadness.

Yeah, right. It's always easier said than done. Advice is easily given but come to think of it, when it's you who was in that dire situation, it's damn so hard.

I've seen people who just laugh at problems. They try so hard to not show they're hurting. I don't even know if that's the best thing to do. Well, they look like they're coping better. But, are they not torturing their hearts by doing so? Am just wondering.

Well, there could really be truth in the saying "laughter is the best medicine". Besides, it's really the brain that's controlling the heart, right? Maybe, we should try "mind over matter".

But then again... it's easier said than done. People have different tolerance level to pain. People have different ways in interpreting situations. People have different attitudes towards problems. And...people have different strengths.

I am not necessarily weak. But, I am more of a feeling person. And that's probably why it's so hard for me to cope easily with dilemmas. But, I promise myself that from this day on...I will try my best to look at things in a different perspective -- in a positive perspective.

I must!

Maybe, it's about time that I start doing self-preservation. Problem with me, I care so much about other people... I become overly attached to people that their problems become my problem. I make it my obligation to do something about another's condition that I am forgetting that I also have my own problems to solve. Worse, when nothing positive comes out, I blame myself. Which is so WRONG!

More than anything, I should be looking after my own self. Like what Lila keeps telling me. "Think about yourself." She'd always remind me that. (And, dear...YOU also have to remind yourself THAT!)

Zee also taught me the value of "making wise investment". Not the financial thing. It's basically about investing in the right persons, in the right situations. He told me that there is nothing wrong to invest your time and effort in friendship for as long as your investment won't just be put to waste. This is the most sensible lesson a person has ever told me.

Zee is not really a close friend. In fact, we rarely talk. But, I'd say he's such a sensible person. And even if we don't see each other now, I can still clearly remember what he taught me.

Yves, too, taught me a lot. And I so appreciate that she understood how I am as a person without me having to explain so much. I didn't have to adjust for her to like me. When she told me that there is nothing wrong with me...it made me feel good about myself. Cause, I have the tendency to put all the blame in myself for how people treat me.

...In one of our conversations, she told me that "you are brought up that way...if you're squeamish...if you're classy or however people perceive you...it's not your fault. You are brought up that way. If they don't like you for who you are, then...the hell with them! You don't need to adjust for people only because you want to be their friend."

She's made her point by saying that. I cried within. At the back of my mind, was thinking that she's the most sensible person I've ever met. Must I say WISE?

What these three people (I mentioned) taught me are still etched in my head. Though, it didn't improve my depressive state so far, it's helping me understand that it is really not my fault if people just sneer at me. I know I did my best to be approachable. I think that is effort enough.

What is this about by the way? Well, I am just reflecting that I have wasted so much time, effort and emotions on people who can't even appreciate me. Which is NOT right. And I want to stop this silliness soon. There are a lot more people out there who deserve what I can share with them. People who are not too arrogant to accept the fact that there are just persons who seem to be "too-good-to-be-true".

This is the ultimate
culprit of everything...

I hate that I am not in my best self right now only because I have harbored so much resentment inside. Sincerely, I feel bad that, "Greenie", even up to the last minute looked at me with so much dislike. Til now, I can't understand where that dislike's coming from. As far as I know, I did what I have to do. Yes, I feel bad. Thinking that I should've/could've tried harder...maybe something fruitful could've happened.

...on the other hand, there is no point blaming myself again. Like what Zee said, maybe she didn't really consider me a friend after all.

Lila also told me that. Now, she keeps reminding me that I am a person of real value. If they can't get themselves to like me, then fine. I have to help myself. Yes, Lila is damn right. I must help myself.

How do I sound now? I sound so bitter. Maybe I am...deep inside. It feels so helpless that I always have to explain myself. People just put judgment on anyone as fast as they can. That's the best thing they can do.

But, lemme correct Lizzie. I did not gave too much effort just because I want / need to be appreciated. If I ever exerted more than enough effort, it's because it's what my heart told me to do. It's what made me happy. At least doing those things gave me a sense of accomplishment.

No, I wasn't waiting for something in return. But, is it really hard to just treat me right? To treat me properly? That's just all that I was asking for.

Well, how can I expect this much from people? Maybe they have much more and heavier issues within them than what I have in myself, right?

Maybe Greenie has so much issue within her. I must pity her.

Right now, what I need to do is to stop asking questions..."WHY?!!!" Logic and rationality is not anymore the issue here. There are just people who are bound to be conceited. And that's why they're called "Green-Eyed Monsters".

My message for all Greenies in the world... "LIVE A LIFE!"

...but not with these (temptationssss)...GOODNESS!!!

Colorful sweets!! yumyum





Wait...I don't like sweets, right?!




...maybe I do?




Grrr...but they look sumptuous...





Maybe I can forget about dieting for now.





One donut won't hurt, anyway. *wink*

What is this rant about? NOTHING!!! Fwahaha...

You can just think that I had a very nice day that's why I was ranting. *wink*

You have a right to your opinions. I just don't want to hear them.

On the way to Robinson’s Galleria to attend the Victory Fellowship after lunch today, Hippo and I saw a newfangled, apple green, two-seater car. It’s so cute. Wasn’t able to take a photo of it, though. *deep sigh*

Fortwo is the name of the two-seater car by DaimlerChrysler AG. I searched the net for photos and info. Here’s how it looks like.

Only this is not apple green

This, too, is not apple green.
Well, just to give you an idea what made me laugh.

Found out that the maker will only start selling the smart car first quarter of 2008 (US). The size of this minuscule, comical looking car’s only about 8 feet long and under 5 feet wide. Still, it’s small but terrible as it can get up to “46 miles per gallon (city driving) and 69 mpg on the highway.” Cool, right?

Fwahahaha~~~ As if I know something about cars, huh?! Whatever! I can only judge the looks, actually. But, I don’t think I’d go for this car. I just like it so I have something to laugh at. Hahaha

I have this habit of laughing at funny looking things I see when traveling. Fwahahaha!!! Like buses. For me, they look so funny esp when you look at them from the front view. They look like geeks wearing thick reading glasses. LOL

See what I mean?

Well, if you find me absurd, just forget about what I said. Or just give it to me. Come on now! Been going through tough times so allow me to laugh sometimes even for the most ridiculous reasons.

There is this bus line company that painted its buses PINK. *glaring eyes* Yes, PINK. Cutie! I still haven't uploaded the photos yet. Will just post the photos next time. It's a provincial bus company called "Florida". Great idea, I'd say. Very appealing to the eyes.

Yoan sent me photos of
Teddie Sr., Teddie Jr. and Miming
through email.




Awww. Thanks Yoh!





They are soooo cute, right?!!!





...am kind of thinking maybe
my AMN friends miss them more than they miss me.
*frowns*

Lila left a comment on my previous blog entry. Of course, Teddie is one of the many things that make me smile. Don’t “tampo now. *big smile* Wait, I think we already gave Teddie a new name, right?! Grrr!!! I forgot. Remind me please? *frowns*

We thought of a name for Teddie Sr. Goodness! All my teddy bear stuffed toys I call Teddie. Hihihi …so I asked Lila for a good name. She jokingly suggested a rather funny sounding name. fwahahaha… of course, I can’t remember the name (again)! Am so bad at remembering names. Grrr!!! Anyway, post the names here, dear. *wink*

We (Lila and I) did the naming for Teddie Sr. when we met in Glorietta at Bo’s last month. It’s the first time we met. Surprisingly, we were comfortable with each other. We talked about a lotta things. We both didn’t expect we would instantly feel that comfortable with each other. Well…

Don’t “tampo” anymore, ok?