Don't ever take a fence down until you know why it was put up.

Your EQ is 147

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

I took the same test some years ago and the result was the same -- 147. Nice.

"You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin."

Yes, I don't judge people quickly and I am very patient just do not hurt me emotionally.

Your Attitude is Better than 65% of the Population

You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

How's Your Attitude?

*sigh* wish people will see this in stead of judging me quickly. I may be quiet and aloof but I am a good listener and friend.

nuf of promoting myself! blah!

You Are 56% Phobic

You have a few more phobias than the average person. And you're sometimes developing new ones. Try to chill out and conquer some of your phobias. Facing your fears is the only way to get rid of them.

How Phobic Are You?

Yes. Am phobic!!! *sobs* am scared of loud noises (sounds) like wang wang (sirens). Grrr... You know how it feels when your heart throbs hard and fast? then you can hardly breathe properly...

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships. It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. A break-up usually comes as a shock to you. You always think things are going well.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

I will have only one true love in my lifetime. hmmm... I wonder who could that be. Have I already found him? Is he just around me waiting for me to notice him?

I hope to know soon.

*sigh* oh well...

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance.

How Are You In Love?

I think everything is true except the last one. hmmm...on the other hand, how can I really tell? I am still to find out, actually. hahaha

You Are 70% Psychic

You are pretty psychic. While you aren't Miss Cleo, you've got a little ESP going on. And although you're sometimes off on your predictions... You're more often right than wrong So go with your instincts - you know more than you think

Are You Psychic?

Yes, I am. It is freaky I know but...just try answering the quiz for you to discover if you are also one.

I have amnesia and deja vu at the same time. Think I've forgotten this before.

It's extremely humid today. grrr! I've almost thrown tantrums.

Not to offend anyone but I frankly don't like summer. Yeah, can't do anything about it. You don't have to remind me. It's part of the country's climate, I know that.

But I just don't like summer!!! Just like those people I know who don't like rain.

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My thoughts
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Why is it that when you stress reality, people will think of you as pessimistic? Not because I listed my observation on what's going on around me already means I see things in a negative way. It only means that I see things as they are and I have accepted them wholeheartedly without bitterness.

Anyway... nuf of sad topics for the meantime. I started to hate having to explain to people that... for crying out loud... "I am not a manic depressive and am definitely not whining all the time!!!"

Why, is it wrong to express one's ideas and feelings for the moment? It so happened that I have this blog to write them down. *sigh* Again...this is my discretionary fiber(?)!!!!

To get through the day...I kept myself busy pimping my friendster account. How OC I had become again. But it's all worth it cause I was able to figure out how to eliminate those tables, anyway. *grins*

Here's the image of my friendster...

Of course, the one in the photo is not me. It's Shin Chan. The lead character in the cartoon I was sooo fond of watching back in college days.

...am trying to keep myself anonymous. As if! But, what's the point in using a pen name and then reveal your identity, right?

*Whew* Took me more than an hour to finally get the look that I like. How am so happy and satisfied!

Notice, it's not pink?!!! I mean, the layout. I found it too typical and teenybopper to use pink and gurly background. So, thought to choose a dark background. Kind of mysterious. Which is very much me.

I didn't do the HTML and CSS thing ok? Yes, I've learned the basics but, I don't think I can ever do anything like that, at least, not in the very near future.

I stumbled upon this site called Friendster Profile Editor. Gee I should've found this site long time before. It helped me worked on the CSS thing. It's fun but it's a trial and error thing. Which is not anyway such a chore.

If you just understand the basics and you know the terminologies, probably it won't take you several tries. In my case, I hate terminologies so... took me longer to get the final look.

Here's the image of my friendster's body...

Nice, right? With the drama effect. hihihi

If you visit Michael's site (the owner of the friendster editor site) ...you will immediately see the editor below the main page. It's easy to follow, anyway, so you won't need anyone to help you. But, I really have to make mention that you can choose any background you want to appear in your account. Like the one I used -- a girl in black with a sad text beside her.

Here's the screen shot of the field where you enter the URL of the image you want to appear as background.

Geesh...the image is too small....here's another one...

GRRR and now it's blurry. *sigh* Anyway, just so you know that you can choose and use an image... hehehe...I mean, am sure you know of it. This is for the sake of those who are NOT techie.

You may use your own photo or any cute photo as background. Just get the url. To do that, you need photo hosting such as Imageshack. It will provide you a "Direct link to image". This is also what I use to post the images am including in each blog entry.

Sounds lotsa technicals for beginners I know. Been there. hehehehe...but now, I can pimp my friendster anyway I want. And am happy.

So, who says am such a whiner, huh? I hope now you realise that even the littlest things can make me smile.

I better reward myself. *sigh* Only not in the form of food since I am currently on a strict diet. Hate that I had to give away my mocha jelly ice craze to Hippo early this afternoon. *sobs*

I think it's their replacement for coffee jelly ice craze. Love it sooo much. Dunno why they had to phase it out. grrr... and the only thing I enjoy from Jollibee is their ube & keso (cheese) ice craze. ...and YES, I eat in Jollibee. So?

Summer has really set in. Wish it's still Holy Week. I just noticed that every year during Holy Week, the weather's cloudy and there's rain. Weird but...of course, I like it better. *sobs* Is it possible that a typhoon would strike a country during the summer season?

I know am being selfish, now. How about the areas suffering from knee-high floods? I know that. But, I still like rainy days better!


Current mood: Feeling so hot but happy! *wink*

The mask of myself shows its face again...

Pink invasion is still not over. Nah-uh!

I promised to show you more screen shots remember? They are here. Was just a lil occupied yesterday so it slipped my mind.

See? This is what Linux (Suse) can do. All my windows are PINK!!! *glaring eyes* The browser site (FireFox and Opera) is pink, gEdit is pink, Amarok is pink, gAim is pink and Konqueror is pink. Everything PINK...

Been trying to capture a screen shot of the KDE menu. Grrrr Doesn't work!!! *sigh* (But...yes, it is also PINK!)

...which gives me an idea to just capture my other Protopage account in stead...

...which is very PINK too!!! hehehe Obviously, the background's...BRATZ!!! Gurly huh?! *wink* Cutie!

Oh well... MS still remains boring. What's wrong with adding more colors? Boo!

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Been talking about Protopage a lot lately. And nobody even asked what's it. hmmm Anyway, LD was the one who introduced the site to me. Basically, it's for storing useful websites for our researches so I've really given time on creating one. And because I couldn't decide which background to use -- Yuna or Bratz -- I thought to create two so I can use both. Clever, huh? *chuckles*

Protopage developers are very friendly and they really accommodate any inquiry.

Flashback...

There were sites and information I needed to hide from the public. That time there's still no option for that. So, what I did, I sent them a message through their feedback something service. Immediately the following day, when I checked my email, they've already sent a reply. Nice. After a few days, they've already included the hide option in response to my request. Yey! Was very happy. *big smile*

Well, basically the purpose of Protopage is to keep all your favorite website links in one site. There are many added features now. There's this virtual pet dog (Proto Puppy) you can play with, clock, calendar, audio and video podcasts, feeds and many others. Swell! hihi

ok...nuf of promotion now...

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...and still another one!!!

Image of my office desktop and more pinks...

Yahoo & Meebo

Can't get enough of pink.

I hope I could come up with a pink theme (layout) for my Green Room. Need help...

anyone?

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Pink provides feelings of caring, tenderness, self-worth and love, acceptance.

Put some pink in your life when you want:

* calm feelings
* to neutralize disorder
* relaxation
* acceptance, contentment

Pink: used in diet therapy as an appetite suppressant, relaxes muscles, relieves tension, soothing

Pink signifies romance, love, and friendship. It denotes feminine qualities and passiveness.

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As an appetite suppressant, aye?! hmmm... Then diet pills should be colored pink, right?! WOW!!! If all medicines are colored pink then, I wouldn't have a hard time convincing myself to take them. hehehe

...which reminds me...

My dad blames me that I didn't grow so tall. He is himself frustrated with his height. Had he grown a lil taller, he could've been in the army. So, he passed his frustration on to me. *sigh*

My confession....

When Pat and I were still young, dad required us to take height enhancement vitamins. Sadly, he never heard of Cherifer. So, I had no choice but to force myself to swallow that big capsule. *bitter* Anyone know of Enervon?! GRRR... For crying out loud! It's definitely not for kids! But, that's what dad gave us. *frowns*

I couldn't swallow the stubby capsules, though. No matter how I tried. Well, not at all times. There were lucky days too, but...
...each unsuccessful swallow...led to the sink drain.

If that vitamin was pink...and tiny...perhaps I could've been taller now. *sigh*

but come on now! Don't get me wrong....puhleaase! I am not frustrated with my height. Who wouldn't want to be taller?

Yes, I wish I were taller but I am already satisfied with my height. Cause I am not, anyway, vertically challenged. Just average and am ok with it. *wink*

Note: Did I even make any sense?

This sentence contradicts itself -- no actually it doesn't.

Enough of the sad blogs for now.

I've been meaning to share with everyone the image of my office desktop. Took a screen shot of it a couple of weeks ago. It's so gurly and PINK! haha...

Been OC adorning my workstation computer. It kept me busy one day. Yes. Done everything in one day. Am proud of myself cause am not a techie person. Well, it's really not something so techie...but...still! *grins*

Yes, I love Bratz so much. No particular character, though. So, don't ask me. Love all of them!!! Stylish, posh and colorful?!!! fwahahaha whatever!

Here is a screen shot of my desktop below...

Hate that the pink window doesn't show...only the task bar... But who could guess it's desktop, right?! hehe

Am planning to install Linux on my home PC so I could enjoy pink at home too. Sadly, according to Binkie, there's not enough space for Linux anymore. Awwww *sigh*

Compare my desktop at home... There's nothing but a cute dog. Love it too, don't get me wrong. But what's so gurly about a dog?

Hope Microsoft will do something about this. I mean, people like me who loves putting color into everything...I think MS has forgotten about us. Am just enjoying pink windows at home because of FireFox. And thanks to Xiaxue for sharing with us Pink Paula. Yehey!

Now, my windows don't look so boring anymore...with just blue or gray border! duh! Thanks FireFox!!! Keep up the good work and satisfy more OC people.

Home Desktop

Check the window!!! Yipee!

PINK!!!!

I only wish you can see (read) the captions...grrr

FireFox also made it possible to open several tabs in one window. So task bar won't have to hold too many tabs. Nice work.

There's also quicknote, a wide selection of themes, tab mix plus, foxy proxy, and many other useful add ons. What more can I ask?

Am wondering how come MS remains old fashioned. Come on now...we need something new. Something innovative! We can't stand silver and blue anymore!!! *sobs real loud*

Later will add screen shots of my office window...Everything's pink. Even the task bar. So, how I love Linux (Suse)!

Here's another image...It's my protopage. Hehehe...

Cutie, huh?!

Don't I love pink so much?!!!

Oh, you can actually see the pink window from the image above. hehehe ...but will still show you what I am talking about. Will add more screen shots.

Like with Linux, you can make everything PINK...or any color you like. The menu, task bar, g-Edit window, Amarok, Konqueror...virtually everything!

For now, I guess I will just have to enjoy pink window. Soon, I will have everything pink, too. Pink monitor, keyboard, mouse and CPU case! *big smile*


Note: Pink is not really my favorite color. I have no favorite color but it looks cute, right?!

Don't quote me.

Yes, everyone is entitled to his or her own opinion. I am. And that gives me all the right to express them here in my green room. Should anyone has any violent reaction, I will respect it. Just as I am expecting people to respect mine.

Anyone can just talk about his or her personal opinion about an observation or a situation. Yes. That is already given. But, come on, being overly opinionated, I guess, is way overboard.

What do I mean by “being overly opinionated”? Well, I chose the term to mean, expressing an opinion without the capacity to perform a suggested action which was thought to be helpful in solving a problem. Don’t get me wrong. Sometimes, I get to be a lil insistent myself, too.

My point is, one must not talk as if with complete certainty unless they are themselves capable of proving something is truly workable. Or at least, they have based their opinion from a previous experience. Opinion requires credibility.

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“Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.”

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I hope not many people are guilty of this. Because really, it sucks to hear people say things without them meaning it. We throw judgment on a particular episode. Something that we know nothing of. We go to a party and an unexpected thing happens. We just go and talk blahs! Why? Because we always think we know better.

Lemme remind everyone that one solution which worked for you may not work for me…may not work for the person next to you…may not work for everybody else in the room with you. So do not think that your idea is that brilliant!

Who knows your suggestion have already been thought of and considered before you even thought of it? Because truth of the matter is, each one of us is a thinking person. Each one of us has our own set of solutions enumerated in our heads. Thing is, not everything is as simple as it may seem.

So, if what you are about to say will do nothing good but in stead make other people feel bad about themselves, it’s better to keep your opinion to yourself. There is a better way to do constructive criticism. And definitely, it is not by sharing your own mindless, insensitive and unproven opinion. So save it.

I'm lonely and I'm too tired to talk

You Sometimes Hold a Grudge

You aren't exactly vengeful, but you're not going to forget when someone wrongs you. And while you'll forgive the small things, you don't hand out too many second chances to people who really screw up.

Do You Hold a Grudge?

Maybe I do. If this ever happens, whoever wronged me had seriously wronged me (big time). Because I am not the type of person who gets easily angered. It takes a very distressing offense before something or someone makes me furious.

I admit, I am very emotional, yes. But unless you wound me by the core, I won't mind you. But expect that I will become noticeably aloof. This is to protect myself from getting deeply hurt. Because, there's a tendency for me to instantly trust with all my heart.

...and I can forgive like nothing happened. I'd disregard any wrong done to me for as long as I trust the person. To a point that I'd just condone someone's shortcomings.

All these have grieved me.

I blame another's cruelty on myself. Critically, I'd scrutinize my own judgment and actions. Is this still not enough?

Clearly, something had made me bitter. Whoever you are....YOU know how you've left a few scars on the walls of my already battered heart.

...but surprisingly, I have forgiven you. No matter how undeserving you are. Somehow, I hate that I still care. In the same way I used to care about you some time ago. Sadly, your personal issues have really made you worse.

Guess, I just have to pity you, in stead.