Don't make my mistake, kid. Don't follow orders your whole life. Think for yourself.

Funny how I spend time creating or pimping blogs. Like I currently have ... what? ... 6 blogs to maintain. Actually, more than 6. I didn't include hi5, bebo, myLot and others. A new hobby? Don't even have time for hobbies. My daily routine has been work-eat-work-sleep. Lucky if I can find time playing with Joel in the morning. He's an early riser. Cute. Joel's, by the way, a 3-yr-old boy. Think I mentioned about him in my previous post.

My life has been work-sick-work-sick. My only relaxation's attending small group & fellowship every Sunday and going grocery. When am so intoxicated with work and stress I take a few minutes walk. Just around the neighborhood. How I wish there's a nearby park. A place where there's all green. *day dreams*

Just recently, I included old & new activities in my routine. Old ones like writing journals for one. This time, though, I note down all activities I do and their effects on me. My diet, my allergies, people I meet & how I feel about them, my frustrations (in bullet form), what I don't like about myself, resolutions, plans and many others... Thought this can help me a lot as I will be more acquainted with who I really am. A little twist to writing a diary. The one am using now is a handy black notebook. I haven't given it a name. There's a need to mention which notebook as I bought two new notebooks and a planner. And I still have like not less than 5 notebooks sitting around my drawers and desks. hehe. Am a collector btw.

Aside from Sunday fellowship, I am now part of a small group. It was a prayer answered for me as I have really been yearning to be in any group to help my spiritual growth. I have met a few new people like couples Donna & Wruel (small group leaders), Cathy and the hubby (I forgot the name), Kate & husband Jhon, Mische and Jane. Can only name a few as I can't remember everyone. Should write down names next time. On the second thought, won't I look weird?

So far, everything's fine. I hope it'll continue to be this way. And am also keeping my fingers crossed that this is my time to have real friends.

Can't squeeze working out into my schedule but, I MUST! Discipline...discipline...discipline!!! The least that I can do is to stand for a few minutes after each meal. But, whenever I am pressured with work, I don't get to do anything else but it. *sigh*

Every morning, whenever I hear Joel playing outside, I'd leave my post and play with him and some other kids in the neighborhood. About an hour. Sometimes, I invite him over here and we play whatever. I tend to lavish him with sweets. Hope it's not bad. I so LOVE kids.

...oh it's already December. Barely noticed that days had gone by so fast. Evident I have been too busy to even tell what day is it. Well, I hope to enjoy Christmas season.


Buh-bye for now...

"It was a very lonely life. And it was not a life I would ever wanna live over again"

For sometime now, I have been a fan of the tv network CI. It could be for my fascination to investigative stuffs. Dunno where I got this interest from, actually. Can't tell why I am interested at all. All I can remember's that even as a kid I had been into gumshoe/mystery kinda plots. My kind of books were the Agatha Christie, Nancy Drew types.

Maybe Certainly it's not only me. There are probably thousands or millions in the world like myself who are into mystery stories. I dunno what really my reason is, but, the simplest explanation I can think of is, I am captivated by things that draw curiosity. Anything that challenges the rationale.

I particularly like intellectual people. Anyone who can impress me with their brilliance. The know-one's-way-around types. Agree with me, they're extremely interesting. Or, maybe, not everyone will agree. Of course. It's probably personal interest. Or could be, I am simply a geek(?).

One particular real-life story I became so interested in was that of Esther Reed's. She's such a bright girl with emotional baggage, who knows? She's just a girl and she managed to escape all crimes she committed until she was arrested this year some time in February.

Esther assumed a missing girl's (Brooke Henson) identity. She was able to fraudulently get into different state universities using another person's name for however she was able to do it. It's amazing, isn't it? She outwitted thousands of people. I can only wonder how her mind works. I am not yet done with my readings but I have seen some vid interviews of people close to her.

Who can really tell if she's the femme counterpart of Frank W. Abagnale Jr.? How did she come up with the crimes she committed and was not caught until this year? If not for the on-going police investigation for the mysterious evanescence of Brooke Henson in 1999, her own disappearance in the same year won't ever be known.

I am attracted in learning how she was able to work around the sitches she herself created. To start with, it's not Henson's identity she snatched first. There were victims who trusted her and, in fact, were her close friends. She had already used several other names before she even came up with Brooke Henson and other more names later on. To sum all her crimes up, she involved herself in identity thefts, fraudulent student loans and phony Social Security numbers.

It appears that she had emotional issues as a child. She even mentioned once in a letter these words... "I feel like I had this wall surrounding my soul and I couldn't get out and nothing could get in." She felt this when she was 14 as indicated in the letter.

Could it be she has no sense of what is right and what is wrong? So many questions. And all those I want to find out the answers for...

Share if anyone knows something, please. *waiting mode*

Signing out now.