As someone once said, there's a difference between a failure and a fiasco.

...so, I was there. With very vague idea what character I was to portray. Was told to stand in line with the other cast. Twas pretty apparent everyone's already dead on their feet from the day long's work. "This can be an excuse for their impatience"...was what I had in mind.

The director asked for an assurance if we all can articulate the lines with character. That I was extremely skeptical about. Warned us that the lines to mem'rize are long. Made me reasonably diffident. I took courage and voiced my concern. The director looked to my direction and curtly examined me but didn't pay much attention to the concern I was raising. In stead, told me to flatten my tongue. Wasn't able to say anything more.

But, I knew I was just going to waste their time so, when it's about time to throw lines, I implored my case once more and explained how I wanted it so badly but I hafta acknowledge my weak point. Which, in fact, is for their own good. Like, they're all so exhausted and it's already past 12mn. I can't really blame them if they yank at me for my mistakes. This time, they finally understood.

As luck would have it, they liked me, that's for sure. And so, I was still given another role. One snag, though... had to wait long hours for my turn (and how I hate waiting). But, I didn't mind. Still, it's a blessing, right?

I knew what my job was; it was to go out and meet the people and love them.

Was in Dubai 14 hours ago. If you're gonna ask me how's it like there or about the weather or how nice it is there...save it. I won't be able to tell you anything. Twas not at all a vacation trip. I didn't tour around. Was there to do my first tele-series after a month of Sundays break from doing television shows. If you want to know of my reliving of the past being there and going back doing my craft, that, I can tell you.

Everything is still the same... Early and unexpected call time. Long hours wait. Scores of staff and crew strewn around the area. Stentorian and shrewish voices of the director and PAs. Legion of wishful talents hankering for a speaking role. Onlookers trying to have a peek at the celebs. These are just to name a few.

Almost got a regular stint only the speaking lines are not just for me. Not my native tongue and was so sure I'd only get yelled at screwing with the takes. Can never blame them if they'd scold at me and tell me nasty comments if this happens. I understand their fatigue. Working 22 hours is no joke so, I saved them from that hassle of extending another hours before calling a pack up. Of course, I feel a lil bad. Sure I will get a better role; but, who wouldn't be dismayed giving away an opportunity after acknowledging incapability?

Am still in but not with the character I should've portrayed. *sigh*

Still, am happy to be back. Will this be a continual thing for me this time around? This I have yet to find out. *daydreams*

Can't talk a lot today -- sick. Come back again and I will share more. See yah, all.