If I'm not back in a few days...just wait longer

Just one more day and hello Convergence! Yipee!! *bounces around*

Am not certain how's it going to come out but am expecting it to be a very good one. This is going to be my first time to witness VCF's Christmas presentation. Am just so excited. Especially, am assuming my crushie is part of it. *sings* lalalalala

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I get to visit my cyber nook very seldom and I noticed how the number of visitors declined. *sigh* Been so busy lately and am sure it's going to be a lot busier the coming days, weeks, months. Oh well...

Thanks to my ever loyal visitors. Hope you won't grow tired of dropping by to check if there's any update.

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Yesterday's Hippo's birthday. No, we weren't able to take snapshots. *sigh* Nothing to flash here. Sorry.

Cooked spag, bought pizza (4 boxes), chicken and cake, sodas and that's it. The celebrant was asleep and I had to badger him out of bed. Felt a lil bad that he seemed to not appreciate my effort. But, hey, I have to consider he's tired from work. Had to keep reminding myself.

Well, he got up and we all ate together. No regret even if am currently on a diet. Happens only once in a blue moon. There's just 8 of us and we just sent out food to the neighbors within the compound.

Earlier the same day, cooked spag, too, for his work chummies. Twas not as good but they all loved it. Wasn't able to get some sleep the previous night so, was kinda snoozy while at the kitch. Even thought there was a quake when I almost fell off face first to the counter top with the knife on my right hand. *whew* ...I realised that my brain was shutting off. My eyes were like dropping and I could feel my soul leaving my flesh. Geesh.

But, no, I have to finish the spag...I protested. So, I ordered my soul to get back in. Twas already 1am. Had to rush as Hippo will be picking the food up at 2am. Just an hour left.

Asking why did I even have to cook it at the dead of the night? ...tis cause it's the only time I was free yesterday.

Sorry if the spag's not as good as before. *frowns* Thanks for loving it still...hehe

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We're still on a struggle to find a better place. Found one near Kalentong, but am very hesitant as I know that place to be prone to flood. *nailbites* Ooohhhh how I hate floods. Who doesn't?! Well the house is elevated so the dirty, stinking water can't get in; but how can we get out of the house when we need to... when the streets are submerged?! Dilemma...

I seriously want to leave my current place. Just so itching to find a better one. We did find one but twas already taken. The owner's willing to give us the front unit only for short term, though. A year or less. Grrr! *scratches head with both hands*

Condo unit? Yes, found a big unit with 3 bedrooms at Governor's Place along Shaw and the monthly rent is not so expensive (@ 17K). Am just complaining that I'd have to pay extra 4K for the dues! Waaahhhhh!!! So, that's already a whopping 21K per month to spend for. Which am not willing to do. Nah!

...and another one in San Francisco Gardens along Boni in Mandaluyong. Just 16K plus 4K dues. Whatda?!! *sobs*

something spacious like this. *day dreams*

Am wondering how come units here are becoming smaller and smaller but the prices are getting higher and higher. Imagine a 45 sq m unit costs like around 14K up?! Duh! (Am I not such a whiner?)

No, am just really concerned that architects are not considering the importance of space anymore. Space IS very important. Guess am the only one over reacting now but I believe, everyone IS also concerned. Only that there's no choice and whining like what am doing now will be of no help at all. But, am not going to stop griping until my concerns are heard! (as if) Silly me.

Paper Tiger's protest.

Gotta split for now. Let's just keep our fingers crossed that I can update my Green Room again soon.

Ciao.

All your crappy stories, all your big dreams.

"...you run out into the night to find another face, and another, and another, until one terrible morning you wake up and realize that revenge has become your whole life. And you won't know why."

It's 1:20am. Just finished reading Kellecker's comment. Of course I appreciate it. But, frankly, it made me feel bad about myself again.

Yeah, the forgiveness issue. They say, take that baggage off you so you can live peacefully. I know of all those things. And, maybe, it'll be very hard for me to just take advices when it comes to Greenie.

God knows how I feel about her. Yes, I have been very vocal about this bitterness and I really dunno how else to convince people that it's really not about time or me not trying. I never really understood why the other person has to be deserving of forgiveness until she came.

I now believe that the other person needs to be deserving of forgiveness. Am not referring to saying sorry or anything like that. Sorry is just like any other words. Just, at least, acknowledge you have wronged someone. Arrogance can really be annoying. Guess, no one can really understand where this ranting is coming from but Bud. Bud who, just like me, have seen what Greenie is really made of.

Am not a small-minded person. I am no short fused. Greenie gave me more than enough reason to feel this way about her. She knows. She was the one who pushed me this far and she also knows that she will never stop. Never will. For whatever reason. It's just her fulfillment.

I sound paranoid, I know. But, I don't wanna end up proving to myself (again) that I am right about this. Should've learned my lesson. Have to be kind to myself. I know I have already done my part. It's her turn.

(Am not upset with you, Kellecker. Don't worry. I hope you understand what I mean. And I know you're just not biased. You don't have any idea...Well...just whining here. Give me this. Haha...really sorry.)

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On the lighter note...

Lilie already received the gift. Yehey. Hoped she really liked it, though. *big smile* Twas for her birthday (Nov. 20). Happi biwthdei tu yooo... hehe Take care of Kingkong (grr Whattaname?! LOL) and Jr Siobe.

Two Sundays ago, I came face to face with my crushie. *giggles* Was about to leave Cinema 5, pouting; saddened with the thought that maybe he was really moved to Pioneer. Just when I turned around he's right there walking towards my direction. Didn't know how to react. Grrr. Couldn't even smile.

so...There he was...passed by me. Oh well. What was I even expecting? Am just not the type of girl who would show any intention.

Last Sunday... no, I didn't see him. *sigh* Not that I have a big crush on him. I just miss him singing. Why did they even have to move him to Pioneer? but...No, I won't move to Pioneer only because he's there. Am already happy in Ortigas. *wink*

so, what is this babbling about, now?! grrr

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Gotta zzzzz now. G'night all.