I wanna be somewhere I belong

... I had nothing to say and I get lost in the nothingness inside of me. I was confused and I let it all out to find that I’m not the only person with these things in mind (inside of me). But all that they can see the words revealed is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel.

...Nothing to lose. Just stuck, hollow and alone and the fault is my own, and the fault is my own.


I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real. I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long. Erase all the pain till it’s gone.

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real. I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along -- Somewhere I belong...

And I’ve got nothing to say. I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face. I was confused.
Looking everywhere only to find that it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I; what do I have but negativity. ’Cause I can’t justify the way everyone is looking at me.

I will never know myself until I do this on my own. And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed. I will never be anything till I break away from me. I will break away. I'll find myself today.

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Most of the time, I am observant. Just quietly looking around. Trying to figure out why people do the things they do. I always ponder on reasons why many people are mean and cruel.

I am the type of person that requires reasons for things. Focusing more on the motive behind an action.

Oh well...

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Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. Know a good thing when you see it and don't let it slip away. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy. They just said, it would be worth your while.


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You fondle my trigger, then you blame my gun

The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.

I guess I must agree. Just like what the Bible says, “Sorrow is better than laughter…it may sadden your face but sharpens your understanding”.

Two quotes support one truth.

Many people refuse to frown even just for a moment. They hate when they see another person lonely. They’d sigh and say, “that’s too dramatic”. But life is full of drama. No matter how hard we deny it.

Am not talking of drama like that in the soaps. Anyone in their right mind can tell it’s a stretching of the truth. That is not the kind of drama I am talking about.

We all get into this state where we suddenly become surly. For a number of reasons we do. Trying to conceal it makes it worse because it’s hard to hide something that is overwhelming you.

Concealers don’t usually work when eye bags are already that prominent. So as our emotion. Sometimes, we just have to let it show.

For the first time, I was able to say something I really do mean inside without inhibitions. But right after I said them, I just had to take them back because I almost forgot that every person has his/her own strengths and weaknesses. There are things and situations that may be easy for someone but not for me. And vice versa.

Guess, there's just really no standard.

Current Mood: A little irritated but doing well.