Since
I started doing day shift, I've been needing help keeping myself awake while at
work. It's seriously tough since I'm nocturnal, and I still often end up
working night shift. Disadvantage of having complete freedom! For quite some time, I've been struggling with
uncontrolled sleepiness. Understandably. This leads me to find helpful ways to
keep me up and on my toes. My eyes kind of like live on their own, though, and
want to drop whenever they feel like.
Playing
movies on one corner of my screen has been somewhat helpful. Movies are not my
frequent choice, however. Podcasts of Bible preachers and Virtual Bible have
been my top preference. But, there are times when even my brain wants to shut off
which makes me not understand anything. At certain times, I need something more
intense to shake me awake. These are times I'd go for action movies. Or
anything suspense. Never horror! Only, they distract me and get me jumping out
of my seat every time. My dogs would usually get startled as I scream out of
nowhere. Can't imagine how I actually look like reacting to fighting scenes. I
should get cctv, maybe, to see myself. Hahaha
Then,
I stumbled upon this Christian film, "I'm Not Ashamed". I'd not seen new ones since there aren't
many of them until yesterday. I wasn't getting the plot at first since I was
focused on what I was doing. So, I had to play it again. Twas the second time that I started
understanding what it was presenting. And I'd say it's meaningful. The flick
isn't really laudable like the mainstream ones. It does portray realities of
this world and of each individuals and the challenges they face, though.
So, it's a story of a Christian teen, Rachel Joy Scott, who went to Columbine High School where she struggled with her faith trying to live in two worlds. She later realized it isn't possible. Indeed, a believer can only serve one master. She had to make a bold and firm choice to live her life for Jesus. It's not been easy for her. And it will never be easy for all those who truly want to serve Christ. There will always be this pull from the world. Humans have this innate need for acknowledgement and for being seen and accepted. To belong somewhere. However, when one chooses Christ, they are to embrace the fact that "they will be hated by the world." They can't be friends of God and friends with the world at the same time. The Bible already stated this truth.
So, it's a story of a Christian teen, Rachel Joy Scott, who went to Columbine High School where she struggled with her faith trying to live in two worlds. She later realized it isn't possible. Indeed, a believer can only serve one master. She had to make a bold and firm choice to live her life for Jesus. It's not been easy for her. And it will never be easy for all those who truly want to serve Christ. There will always be this pull from the world. Humans have this innate need for acknowledgement and for being seen and accepted. To belong somewhere. However, when one chooses Christ, they are to embrace the fact that "they will be hated by the world." They can't be friends of God and friends with the world at the same time. The Bible already stated this truth.
Rachel's
life moved me. She allowed God to use her. She didn't completely understand
what God's purpose was but she willingly gave her remaining life (she was the
first victim of the Columbine High School massacre and went to meet her maker on April 20, 1999) in obedience to
Jesus' teachings. She walked the talk. She gave no excuse to herself not to
obey what Jesus commanded. Particularly, the subjects of forgiveness and
compassion. Her life is truly moving. At such young age (17), and having stayed
shortly on Earth, she was able to touch lives. It's been her aim and goal and
she fulfilled it. Of course, not without the help of God, I'd say. All she had
to do was to obey. To live in step with the Spirit.
Such
a worthwhile reminder for me. I still find myself hankering for
approval and recognition from time to time. There is still this need shouting
from within, "notice me", "appreciate me", "acknowledge me". And so I can
undeniably relate to the struggle Rachel faced. To stand up for Christ is not
trouble-free. It leads a believer and follower to deep heartache and distress.
Not only because people will shut them out and ostracize them, but because a
believer also has to do the same to their own selves as Jesus commanded, "deny yourself" (Matthew 16:24-26). If
one is to say that they're a disciple of Christ, then they are to constantly
counter their impulses. When it's easier to dislike another, a believer and
follower has to give the red light to their feeling. They're not anymore living
as slaves to the flesh's natural urges (see Galatians 5:17-21). Love and compassion becomes their trademark and
moves them to serve others, even those who are unlovable. Especially the
unlovable.
Her
story could probably be not as inspiring to most except to the lives she
touched personally. Those who she moved with her compassion and sincere
concern. The society calls what she did martyrdom. Who will still do the same?
Who wants to be excluded? To be treated like a nobody? To be taken advantage of
and not retaliate? Secretly disliked and mocked? No one except those who Jesus
called to Him. People He chose to represent Him to shine His light into this
dark world. The world defines such choice (as what Rachel chose) as martyrdom,
the Bible defines it as radical love. Unconditional, sacrificial, and selfless
love. First for the Lord, and next for the neighbors. Christianity isn't about
showing the world that one reads the Bible and speaks loudly about God and
Jesus. It is living Jesus' commandments and following His ways. It's a
lifestyle of denying self in order to conform to the teachings of Jesus and the
Apostles no matter how difficult it gets. Even if it requires them to set their own selves and desires aside. Even if it means being abandoned by
the ones we care for and love. Even if it means to be hated by people. Even if
it means being enemy of the world.
Through
Rachel's example, I am reminded that success and fulfillment can't be attained
by being known and popular; or by doing what we love and gaining from it; or by
being appreciated and loved by many; or by having more stuff; or by understanding why everything happens
the way they do…or by however this world defines success and fulfillment.
Living for the purposes of God and how He designed each one is the only way to
experience real success and fulfillment without feeling empty and off course eventually.
Following the ways of Jesus (and not the world's) is the means to have a meaningful life that never
leads to futility. It protects people from disillusionment and disgruntlement
by trying to chase after things and whatever in order to be happy. Everywhere we look, we see faces whose lives find no satisfaction even though they already have more than the basics. Even they seem to have it all together. Indeed, godliness with contentment is great gain. And this is attainable only when one receives Christ's peace which transcends all understanding. When one comes to abandonment of self and own understanding to completely trust, depend, and rely solely on the Lord.
We don't need to be heroes to make a difference and to influence many. Just with the way we live our lives in love and in the ways of God on a daily already is the influence we can begin with to start a ripple effect. Every person around us have needs we can meet if only we give attention and time. One act of kindness can lead to some lasting impact. Don't aim to reach hundreds and thousands. Just reach one lost soul and plant hope in their heart. Trust that each individual reached will pay it forward, thus, keeping the ball running. That's the the only difference Jesus wants us to model.
And I know that each time God brings reminder and enlightenment, He is realigning His child to His methods and plans. What a way to prepare me for the year to come!
Sharing some of the lines I like from the film (mostly by Rachel). Check them out if you will!
"Compassion is the greatest form of love that humans have to offer. I have this theory that if one person, can go out of their way to show compassion, it could start a chain reaction. How do you know that trust and beauty and compassion won't make the world a better place to be in? Tomorrow's not a promise... but it's a chance. You might just start a chain reaction. And what's behind all of this is my faith. I'm a Christian."
"There's no easy answer, but I don't think that God wastes anything."
"I just want to live my life for Jesus and let people take whatever they want from that."
"Well, people aren't gonna accept us for our faith. But it's okay. We have to love and serve them anyways. And I'm talking compassion, forgiveness. I mean if we don't, what's gonna attract them to God?"
"Don't let your character change color with your environment. Find out who you are and let it say its true color."
“God does not waste anything, even if it’s hard.”
“Living for Jesus is not always easy but it’s always right.”
“We seek truth in a world full of lies.”
“Life’s going to be hard sometimes but He’s there. As hard as that is to grasp, He’s in control.”
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