Friday, June 27, 2008

Nothing will hurt me as much as your reaction to that same experience.



What I learned this past week:

1. When you're angry... 'tis never the right time to confront someone who's miffed you. Wait til you're all calm and ready to talk without having to bluster your choler out.

2. Making conclusions aggravates differences and misunderstandings.

3. You can't convince an angry person. Either the person will take everything you say against you or he will hate you more.

4. (truly) You can't please everyone. It's basically just about 'contentment'. Sadly, people don't just get satisfied unless the favor's always theirs.

5. It's hard to decide whether to open up OR to just stay quiet and keep your pains inside when you're sure you'll only be misunderstood.

6. People just have different opinion about the same topic. Each one will insist on their own point of view. No one can do anything about it.

7. What is true for me may not be true for you. And what is true for you may not be the truth for the person next to you... We all have different truths.

8. Communicating our feelings out can't always solve the problem.

9. There are people who are just easily steamed.

10. There is completely no point in explaining your side to someone who is NOT interested to even hear it, anyway.











Monday, June 16, 2008

It's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world.



Father's day yesterday and I wasn't even able to greet dad and Mamai personally. Awww. Am I a bad daughter & grand daughter? I actually planned to send dad and Mamai something but, was totally swamped. Plus, Sunday is time for Church. Sorry. *frowns*

Well, isn't it evident yet how busy I have been? Since the start of June, this is the first blog posted. I dunno where my blog will go after a few months. Down the drain ... I hope not. Wishing so hard that my PR won't go zero. *crossed fingers*

Pastor Rico talked about dads (of course). He emphasized how important it is to honor and respect our dads no matter how they have been to us. Good or bad. Nobody's perfect and being bitter won't change anything. We all have to look past our dads' shortcomings.

He asked how many attendees still appreciate their fathers. I sincerely raised my hand. Dad has never been the father I always wanted to have. In fact, he has never been one but a critic to me. I lived most of my childhood life hearing his harsh comments. Like what I posted last year, never had he said a single praise about me.

But, I can sincerely say that I appreciate him for how I have become. Many things I owe to him and I truly understand why is he like that. Maybe, I can say this because I am now finally away from him. I'd often feel upset whenever my siblings grumble about him being like this and that, though. Especially when it's Mom telling me about him. But, my respect for him never changed. Am not sure why.

I guess my love for him remains in spite of all my bad memories of him. There are times I still blame him for my insecurities and lack of self-confidence. Whenever I see persons with great personality, I get envious. I could've been like them. Full of self-confidence and are able to walk in the middle of the crowd chin up. But, how can I? When all I had heard my entire younger years were criticisms ... From my own father.

Truth is, if I will list down all the good things and the bad things I experienced with dad, more will go under bad things. Very few will go under good. In fact, whenever I hear the word 'dad', all I remember is pain.

I can't really say am not upset anymore. But, what am sure of is, I love him and I respect him no matter what. And am still not losing hope that one day, he'd change and I can finally experience to have a real dad.










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A Love with a promise of permanence.

"...if any hear MY voice and open the door,  I will come into their house and eat with them,  and they will eat with ME." ...

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