Real life doesn't fit into little boxes that were drawn for it.

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood.

...and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

Cab fare to nowhere is what you are

...and you think you've asked something real and they think they've said something real. You think because you toss the word love around like a frisbee we're all going to get warm and sunny.

No. Something happens to some people. They love you so much they stop noticing you're there because they're so busy loving you. They love you so much ... their love is a gun ... and they keep firing it straight into your head.

...and I know one thing you learn when you grow up is that love is not enough. It's too much and not enough.

A tear shed can say more than a hundred words spoken.

Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you.

Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud that no one hears you screaming.

No you don't know what it's like when nothing feels all right. You don't know what it's like to be like me.

To be hurt...
To feel lost...
To be left out in the dark...
To be kicked when you're down...
To feel like you've been pushed around...
To be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you.
No you don't know what it's like...
Welcome to my life!

Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies while deep inside you're bleeding...

No you don't know what it's like when nothing feels all right. You don't know what it's like to be like me.

No one ever lied straight to your face and no one ever stabbed you in the back. You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay...

I'm ready. Depression.

I walk a lonely road ...the only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes but it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street on the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps and I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone



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NO one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.
And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE

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