Monday, July 30, 2007

This is just so in demand. Sorry.



Am evil mean.


I won't just give up. I really had to find that video where Beyonce tumbled down the stairs during a concert. Bwahaha!

After a couple of tries getting results like this...

Singer Requests Video Of Fall Not Be Posted On YouTube

and this...


This video has been removed due to terms of use violation.

I finally found one. La-lala-lala...*whistles*

YouTube failed to keep the videos, yes. But, CNN still has it. *devilish grin*

Here it is. Enjoy!






Part of being sane is being a little bit crazy.

I "dumped" my blog onto Blog Dumps a few weeks ago and guess what?

...No, am not gonna tell you just yet. Why don't you check..."what?"

What is Blog Dumps, btw?! Well, if you want to increase the traffic in your blog, then by all means find ways to get traffic. Blog dumps is just one of the many ways to do so. *wink*

Ok, now you have a clue.

YES!! Blog dumps featured my blog and luckily, twas placed conveniently at the top. I mean, of course, next to the title and tabs. hehe

Maybe my tummy helped. What d'ya think?! *wink* Whatever! All I know is that I am happy. *big smile*



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Yehey!


So, are you ready to dump your blog? It's just easy as riding a bike. Go to this link and then scroll down til you see a form. There are also cutie widgets there with codes which you can add to the sidebar of your blog. It should only take a day or two for Blog Dumps to approve your blog.

Just sharing.

And to add to that... Am richer again by two million five hundred dollars! I dunno but I keep winning UK lottery draws. How lucky can I get, right? Imagine, I don't do lotto (even local) and yet I win it. Who can ever be more lucky than me?!

Grrr...Only wish they're for real. Who knows? fwahaha. Am the richest person in the world.

I didn't post the image here because it's kinda blurry. Pointless to paste when you can't read the words anyway. Thing is, there are just so many scams roaming around the Net nowadays. What's annoying is that they love my email so much. Call it favoritism...only I do NOT appreciate it. blah blah blah


...and that's just one of the many notices I have received in the past months. Am pleading to the Scammy community to stop making me richer than I already am. Dunno where else to store my wealth, anymore.

Maybe I better invest in FrancSwiss. *grins*

Ok, ok...Enough of the craps. And let's talk about Beyonce. Have you heard...? For sure, all showbiz freaks out there have already heard about her nasty fall. It happened during her concert in Orlando, Florida.

I was so eager to see what really happened but when I checked with YouTube, it's already inaccessible. In stead, this is what's showing...


This video is no longer available due to a copyright claim by Sony BMG.


Oh well. Of course, Beyonce was spared of more embarrassment.


By the way. Thanks to all patient people who keep dropping by my "magazine-like" (as how one of my visitors put it) blog. You are the reason that I still post here. hahaha (joke of course! I love blogging, y'know.)

This message made me smile, seriously. *smiles with passion*

Where is it located? It can be reached by Email right?
...Do you work in a McDonald branch?

He's talking about my hometown -- Heard and McDonald Islands. Awww. Everybody's wondering where I grew up. Don't worry, will talk about my hometown next time. Just have to think wittingly how to describe it in a very interesting and animated way. You just don't have any idea how I used to live a humdrum life. Well..you shall soon find out.

...and he really thought I was working at McDonald's? *LOL*


Here's another one...

"tama ba diba dati kulot kulot buhok mo pero mabait ka nun kita mo tanda ko pa last name mo"

(translation: You used to have curly hair, right? But, you were kind. See? I can still remember your last name.)


Yeah yeah..after he said my last name's "Sta. Maria" (on the subject field)! He really remembered me. *ROL* I wonder if he was just trying to make me laugh or what.




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This is the girl he's talking about.



Well, I have already shown a photo of myself when I wrote about those two overweight aunts who compared me to Iwa Moto. But, I won't mind showing you my photo AGAIN.



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Am so pretty! *adores self*



I just need my identity back. *sobs* I am NOT her. *howls*

blah blah blah

Everybody's been writing about Hollywood gossips. Hmmm...what can I write about? *thinks* Am not so much into entertainment...esp not gossips. I, myself, am very controversial so...no NEED. But, ok. Lemme try.


I haven't really told anyone that I am an avid fan of Mr. Bean. Have been spying on him lately and I couldn't believe that he has already found a new love interest. (Like it that am working as a paparazzi. And it is not just a past time.) So, whatever happened to Irma? And who is this girl he's hooking up with lately? hmmm




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Mr. Bean found his new love interest!



Will find out soon. So, stick with me.






Thursday, July 26, 2007

Money is the root of all evil. For more information, send $10 to me.

What if you can see a few minutes into the future? Would you consider it a good deal?

As I was watching the film, "Next", I was wishing I had the same gift, too. In stead of just second guessing what my intuition is telling me. On the other hand, I thought it's rather a torment if ever. Imagine yourself seeing a few minutes of what's going to happen to you. Frightening.

Yes, you can change your destiny and all (like, you can sure win the lottery, right?) but wouldn't it be like a curse as well? ...Seeing what is about to happen to you. Like you are going to be hit by a bus or something. Geesh. Dunno how to handle that.

The character, Cris Johnson, has that gift since he was 3. Well, twas not anymore such a tough thing for him since he's been dealing with that gift for a long time. But, was kinda thinking how was it like during the first times he had experienced it? And at age 3!

I specifically like the choreography during the getaway scenes inside the casino. Hehe. The securities kept missing him by a nanosecond. Clever! fwahaha.

Love the movie because it's meticulously done. Like we timed everything... how he'd foreseen the future. Twas all less than 2 minutes. Well calculated. hehehe Besides the fact that I love Nicolas Cage. (Only he's received so many disparages for all the films he recently did.) Some graphics were a bit obvious, though, but it's pardonable.

However, many film critics gave it a C minus. Awww...

Basically, I just like the film because of my interest in learning about how to make use of my intuition effectively. And am still finding more information.

Also seen "Stranger Than Fiction". Quite a unique story about an IRS agent -- Harold Crick. Twas actually an adaptation of a Spanish novel, Niebla written by Miguel Unamuno.


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Harold was a time freak.. and then one day he suddenly heard a voice narrating his life. Freaky! The author was a woman and she also spoke of his imminent death. Which is even more freaky!!! Grrr!!!

It's entertaining (for me).

...Enough of movies now.

Bad news for Bedistas. Letran defeated the Red Lions yesterday by one point! *sobs real hard* I know...I know.. OA! Hehehe.

Wasn't able to watch the game so I had to check with Inbound Pass. According to their report, Ekwe was fouled out in the third quarter, which made it easy for the Knights to attack. But, the win actually happened a few seconds before the end of the fourth quarter when Guevarra made a two points shot with only 3.2 seconds left. Frustrating! GRRRrrr!!!

Well, the game was great! It's a game to watch, actually. Will check if there's a video of this game on YouTube.

Letran did a very good job and, in fact, we actually thought they will really give the Red Lions a hard time. True enough.

The Quarter Scores: 12-23; 27-34; 50-44; 70-69

Next San Beda game will be on ... No announcement yet from Inbound Pass. hehehe


It made me smile that someone took time to learn about my hometown -- Heard and McDonald Islands. hihihi Cute! I appreciate it, Victor. Will share with you his message...

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i've been reading up on those islands, and it seems at least you have penguins and seals to keep you company :D the terrain is said to be harsh though. so i'm guessing you were hurt or something so you just wanted to be a hermit basically and be far from human contact altogether? ;)

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I'd say, nice hypothesis! hihihi


Anyway, want to show you my work of art. Just please don't say any more comment. If you don't/can't appreciate them, stay quiet. Keep your fingers away from your keyboards and just browse down if you can't stand the sight, ok?!



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Obviously this is Winnie the Pooh! hehehe



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Winnie with Piglet...



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Love the sight of sunset...hmmm is this even sunset?!!!



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Just anything I thought of.



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Forgot who this is. Just copied from a magazine.




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Love this one a lot!




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Odie! My fave cartoon dog.




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Fishie fish...
Am reminded of Ernie (from Sesame Street) when he was fishing.



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Just a villain character. Have I mentioned that
I dream to portray a villain role?



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Eagle. Copied from Philippine Almanac.




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My doodlings... hehehe


Can't find my sketch pad. Awww... So, this is all I can show you for now. *frowns*

Finally, a response from Marc.


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i don't believe that you should stop caring for people too much, it's a trait everyone should have. just imagine if everyone is like you, we'll live in a more caring world. but love and compassion starts with oneself and you should never allow anyone to take advantage of you.

i sense you have a big heart and tend to give much of yourself to others. the detriment of that is expecting others to reciprocate the love and affection you give which always doesn't happen and you feel used and abused. this is exactly what i meant when i told you in my earlier message that life is not fair. giving too much of yourself is free will and is its own reward. expecting others always to give in return will surely disappoint you.
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Thank you Marc. *smiles*

...Have a wonderful day y'all! *waves*

Status: Trying hard to stay positive.







Friday, July 20, 2007

I don't know what your problem is, but I'll bet it's hard to pronounce.

NOTHING APPEARS.


I give up. It won't really work! Grrr. Hmp! Well, just tick on the link, then, and make yourself laugh.

Watch the video here >>> Spelling Bee Word: Sardoodledom

Stumbled upon this funny video. A black boy at a spelling bee kept laughing over (to him) a funny sounding word -- Sardoodledom.

Dunno about you but this made me laugh. ROL.

Well, I get to laugh at funny sounding (tagalog) words, too.

...like "lapis" (pencil), "sinandomeng" (a type of rice) fwahahaha!!! "gooshgooshin" (in rags) ROL ... "alibocboc" (dust), "sipilyo" (toothbrush), "bisuyas" (onion), "tookmol" and "ugok" (pronounced with a certain passion...I completely have no idea what the words mean!!!)

(The last two words I always hear from Hippo, Kalbo -- another funny sounding word!!! -- and Lizzie. hehehe)

But, they (the words) all sound funny to me!!! Fwahahaha

I can't think of any other tagalog words that I find funny. Am trying to think but nothing really comes out. Hmmm

If you guys have any funny sounding words to share...tagalog, Japanese, English... just post them here and let's laugh at them together. bwahahahaha!!!

Anyway, maybe next time I hear some things, I'll write them down. Will collect lotsa funny sounding tagalog words, compile them and post them all here.

...or better yet, I'll make a book. The title would be "Paper Tiger's Laughable Words". What d'ya say?!!! *grins*

But, sardoodledom? Hmmm... well, Answers.com defines it as "a melodramatic plot". It didn't sound so funny to me since am a bit acquainted with obsolete words. Anyway, at least the boy had his more than 15-minute-fame, right?

But, I really laughed while I was watching the video cause I could see myself in him. And how my friends, my mom and my siblings would guffaw when I start laughing as I hear funny sounding tagalog words. *embarrassed* ...Especially when watching a tagalog show or telenovela. *cheeks turning pinkish*

Well, there are just words that are hard to pronounce. I have heard many Americans that can't pronounce "hospitable" properly. Life's just like that! *wink *wink*


Well...so much for laughing...


Uhm, I dunno how to take this. When I am mad and I express it ...whether in writing or verbally... people laugh. Grrr!!! What's that about, huh?!! *wonders*

My ex, Piggy, when we chat and I'd express my irritation to a comment he makes, in stead of backing off, he would laugh. Like with all pleasure! Even when I am already up in arms! Grrr...What is the matter with him?


Bobitch, too! Hmp! I remember when I was still in AMN... he did crazy, irritating things to piss me and even when I was already annoyed and complaining, he just wouldn't stop and even cackled! Duh!


There's this certain Victor who read my blog entry "Everyone has the right to be stupid, but you are abusing the privilege!"

He finds my way of ranting amusing. Fwahahaha!!! Here's his comment.

"btw nice blog, was grinning throughout your rant about the pink high heels/iwa look-alike incident. lol you're cute when you're mad.

keep cool!"

Cute when am mad?!!! Huh?! So, that's why Piggy and Bobitch were laughing at me when am expressing anger, huh? Is this right? Is this for real? *scratches head with all ten fingers*

Thanks a lot Victor! First, for reading my blog...second, for grinning the entire time you were reading my ramblings! Is there a third? hmmm... Yes. Third, for leaving a comment (if you're Anonymous).


That's all for now.







Thursday, July 19, 2007

Judge me all you want, but keep the verdict to yourself.

Grrr!!! This is the 2ndth time!

Was about to post my today's entry when Pee-Cee froze. Grrr!!! &*#%^$!!! How about that?!! Anyway...

Here's what I was to say...

Lila kept telling me, now and again..."You have a pure heart, Siobe." (Yes, she calls me Siobe. Cute!) "You are susceptible to abuse. You are an easy target."

Yves told me the same, too. Guess, they're both right.

..and Rellie sent me this quote...(thanks for staying in touch, Rellie.)


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"Other people's opinion of you doesn't have to become your reality.
Those who follow the crowd usually get lost in it.
I don't know the key to success,
but one key to failure is to please everyone.
So, why waste time about what others will tell you?
In stead, do what makes you happy."

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Sensible, right?

Oh, how I looovvve quotes! Wish it's just easy to adapt them. Only it's not. Takes lotsa time and sad experiences.

Now, what's there for me to do is to adapt all the learnings and stop being ME. Maybe, I should start being the protagonist. What d'ya think?! *wink*

Sounds like a very interesting role, now. Bwahahaha!!! Be afraid...be VERY AFRAID!!

About the quote Rellie sent me...it's not that I was trying to please people. Nor am I still trying. Let's just say that I was just cautious of what people will perceive of me.

...Only to find out that no matter what I do, people are always going to talk. There is NOTHING that I can do about that. People love to gossip (surprisingly, even MEN!!!). People are quick to judge. For what ever reason they are fond of saying ugly things about others. Whatta vicious habit!!

Well, there is really only ONE reason.

Twas such a WASTE of time, effort and emotions. Talk about making wise investments! (Thanks Zee)

WHEW!!!

Now, I can say I am much wiser. *bites nails* Wait...what did I just say?! Hope I can really put my learnings to practice. Geesh!


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Life is a dance step that never goes out of style.
Sometimes you stumble, sometimes you hurt someone.
But oftentimes, you must learn new steps to survive.

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Finally, I also have to include this message sent by Marc (through Friendster)...

"life is not fair, people will do cruel things toward one another, that's just the way it is, it's a fact of life. but part of healing is realizing that once you've forgiven someone you lift that burden you've been carrying.

and then, there are people (former friends) i just stay away from and keep them out of my life. if these same people give you nothing but heartaches and pains, just give them up. if they make you unhappy, you don't need them. if it's family, you're up shit creek without a paddle - just kidding.

there is this saying "fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me". once i've been done wrong by a person, even someone close to me, i'm more careful, wary, and not as trustful towards that person. i keep them closer to keep an eye on them.

... you express yourself well and i surmise you have a logical train of thought. i would like to correspond with you some more and hopefully, we can get to know each other."








Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Excuse me, have you seen my sanity? I think I lost it.

I think I have to start with this...

Warning: Get a pillow and a teddy to hug because this is going to make you sleepy. (I bet) Good luck and sweet dreams! hihihi

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So, what do you do when you are filled with emotions? But the emotions are rather unpleasant...? They say, do not dwell on negative things. In stead, think of happy thoughts. Focus on things that make you smile to shift your attention from the situation that's causing sadness.

Yeah, right. It's always easier said than done. Advice is easily given but come to think of it, when it's you who was in that dire situation, it's damn so hard.

I've seen people who just laugh at problems. They try so hard to not show they're hurting. I don't even know if that's the best thing to do. Well, they look like they're coping better. But, are they not torturing their hearts by doing so? Am just wondering.

Well, there could really be truth in the saying "laughter is the best medicine". Besides, it's really the brain that's controlling the heart, right? Maybe, we should try "mind over matter".

But then again... it's easier said than done. People have different tolerance level to pain. People have different ways in interpreting situations. People have different attitudes towards problems. And...people have different strengths.

I am not necessarily weak. But, I am more of a feeling person. And that's probably why it's so hard for me to cope easily with dilemmas. But, I promise myself that from this day on...I will try my best to look at things in a different perspective -- in a positive perspective.



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I must!


Maybe, it's about time that I start doing self-preservation. Problem with me, I care so much about other people... I become overly attached to people that their problems become my problem. I make it my obligation to do something about another's condition that I am forgetting that I also have my own problems to solve. Worse, when nothing positive comes out, I blame myself. Which is so WRONG!

More than anything, I should be looking after my own self. Like what Lila keeps telling me. "Think about yourself." She'd always remind me that. (And, dear...YOU also have to remind yourself THAT!)

Zee also taught me the value of "making wise investment". Not the financial thing. It's basically about investing in the right persons, in the right situations. He told me that there is nothing wrong to invest your time and effort in friendship for as long as your investment won't just be put to waste. This is the most sensible lesson a person has ever told me.

Zee is not really a close friend. In fact, we rarely talk. But, I'd say he's such a sensible person. And even if we don't see each other now, I can still clearly remember what he taught me.

Yves, too, taught me a lot. And I so appreciate that she understood how I am as a person without me having to explain so much. I didn't have to adjust for her to like me. When she told me that there is nothing wrong with me...it made me feel good about myself. Cause, I have the tendency to put all the blame in myself for how people treat me.

...In one of our conversations, she told me that "you are brought up that way...if you're squeamish...if you're classy or however people perceive you...it's not your fault. You are brought up that way. If they don't like you for who you are, then...the hell with them! You don't need to adjust for people only because you want to be their friend."

She's made her point by saying that. I cried within. At the back of my mind, was thinking that she's the most sensible person I've ever met. Must I say WISE?

What these three people (I mentioned) taught me are still etched in my head. Though, it didn't improve my depressive state so far, it's helping me understand that it is really not my fault if people just sneer at me. I know I did my best to be approachable. I think that is effort enough.

What is this about by the way? Well, I am just reflecting that I have wasted so much time, effort and emotions on people who can't even appreciate me. Which is NOT right. And I want to stop this silliness soon. There are a lot more people out there who deserve what I can share with them. People who are not too arrogant to accept the fact that there are just persons who seem to be "too-good-to-be-true".



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This is the ultimate
culprit of everything...


I hate that I am not in my best self right now only because I have harbored so much resentment inside. Sincerely, I feel bad that, "Greenie", even up to the last minute looked at me with so much dislike. Til now, I can't understand where that dislike's coming from. As far as I know, I did what I have to do. Yes, I feel bad. Thinking that I should've/could've tried harder...maybe something fruitful could've happened.

...on the other hand, there is no point blaming myself again. Like what Zee said, maybe she didn't really consider me a friend after all.

Lila also told me that. Now, she keeps reminding me that I am a person of real value. If they can't get themselves to like me, then fine. I have to help myself. Yes, Lila is damn right. I must help myself.

How do I sound now? I sound so bitter. Maybe I am...deep inside. It feels so helpless that I always have to explain myself. People just put judgment on anyone as fast as they can. That's the best thing they can do.

But, lemme correct Lizzie. I did not gave too much effort just because I want / need to be appreciated. If I ever exerted more than enough effort, it's because it's what my heart told me to do. It's what made me happy. At least doing those things gave me a sense of accomplishment.

No, I wasn't waiting for something in return. But, is it really hard to just treat me right? To treat me properly? That's just all that I was asking for.

Well, how can I expect this much from people? Maybe they have much more and heavier issues within them than what I have in myself, right?

Maybe Greenie has so much issue within her. I must pity her.

Right now, what I need to do is to stop asking questions..."WHY?!!!" Logic and rationality is not anymore the issue here. There are just people who are bound to be conceited. And that's why they're called "Green-Eyed Monsters".

My message for all Greenies in the world... "LIVE A LIFE!"

...but not with these (temptationssss)...GOODNESS!!!



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Colorful sweets!! yumyum




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Wait...I don't like sweets, right?!



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...maybe I do?



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Grrr...but they look sumptuous...




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Maybe I can forget about dieting for now.




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One donut won't hurt, anyway. *wink*



What is this rant about? NOTHING!!! Fwahaha...

You can just think that I had a very nice day that's why I was ranting. *wink*







Sunday, July 15, 2007

You have a right to your opinions. I just don't want to hear them.

On the way to Robinson’s Galleria to attend the Victory Fellowship after lunch today, Hippo and I saw a newfangled, apple green, two-seater car. It’s so cute. Wasn’t able to take a photo of it, though. *deep sigh*


Fortwo is the name of the two-seater car by DaimlerChrysler AG. I searched the net for photos and info. Here’s how it looks like.



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Only this is not apple green




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This, too, is not apple green.
Well, just to give you an idea what made me laugh.


Found out that the maker will only start selling the smart car first quarter of 2008 (US). The size of this minuscule, comical looking car’s only about 8 feet long and under 5 feet wide. Still, it’s small but terrible as it can get up to “46 miles per gallon (city driving) and 69 mpg on the highway.” Cool, right?


Fwahahaha~~~ As if I know something about cars, huh?! Whatever! I can only judge the looks, actually. But, I don’t think I’d go for this car. I just like it so I have something to laugh at. Hahaha


I have this habit of laughing at funny looking things I see when traveling. Fwahahaha!!! Like buses. For me, they look so funny esp when you look at them from the front view. They look like geeks wearing thick reading glasses. LOL



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See what I mean?


Well, if you find me absurd, just forget about what I said. Or just give it to me. Come on now! Been going through tough times so allow me to laugh sometimes even for the most ridiculous reasons.


There is this bus line company that painted its buses PINK. *glaring eyes* Yes, PINK. Cutie! I still haven't uploaded the photos yet. Will just post the photos next time. It's a provincial bus company called "Florida". Great idea, I'd say. Very appealing to the eyes.



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Yoan sent me photos of
Teddie Sr., Teddie Jr. and Miming
through email.



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Awww. Thanks Yoh!




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They are soooo cute, right?!!!




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...am kind of thinking maybe
my AMN friends miss them more than they miss me.
*frowns*


Lila left a comment on my previous blog entry. Of course, Teddie is one of the many things that make me smile. Don’t “tampo now. *big smile* Wait, I think we already gave Teddie a new name, right?! Grrr!!! I forgot. Remind me please? *frowns*


We thought of a name for Teddie Sr. Goodness! All my teddy bear stuffed toys I call Teddie. Hihihi …so I asked Lila for a good name. She jokingly suggested a rather funny sounding name. fwahahaha… of course, I can’t remember the name (again)! Am so bad at remembering names. Grrr!!! Anyway, post the names here, dear. *wink*


We (Lila and I) did the naming for Teddie Sr. when we met in Glorietta at Bo’s last month. It’s the first time we met. Surprisingly, we were comfortable with each other. We talked about a lotta things. We both didn’t expect we would instantly feel that comfortable with each other. Well…


Don’t “tampo” anymore, ok?







Sunday, July 8, 2007

Even If It Kills Me, I'm Gonna Smile.


Been wondering about how intuition works and if it's a natural thing. It is not. I should know. And it's the same reason I couldn't understand why I get to have feelings of something that's happening to a person close to me even if that person is far away. It's kinda weird and freaky (I must say).

But, unfortunately (or fortunately?) ...I have it. I am one of the intuitives. Thing is I dunno how to handle this kind of gift. It could be an advantage, actually, only if I know how to make use of it. Only I don't.

There will be instances when I'd get to feel something. Sometimes, I'd suddenly feel so down and low. For no apparent reason, that is. So, am kind of annoyed with myself. Why not? There are lotsa things to do and your chest will suddenly feel so heavy. Who wouldn't be annoyed?!

Like just recently, I was supposed to do articles (for Lila). Then, I felt this heavy feeling in my chest. Not that my breast had grown bigger, ok?! I dunno. I can't even tell why. If only I could.

You know how it feels to suddenly feel so sad and anxious or even extremely uneasy over something unknown?! Dammit! It's weird and I hate myself for that. Of course, anyone's initial reaction to this kind of feeling would be irritation. I was damn irritated that I was feeling that way.




The next day, I found out that dad was confined to the hospital. It's only then that I understood what was the feeling about. But, to make sure, I had to ask mom when did dad start feeling ill. She told me that they noticed something wrong with dad the day before he was sent to the hospital.

...Which was the day I felt that inexplicable feeling!

I get to have feelings about things. Grrr. Now, to be able to put it to good use so I won't be sulking the whole day over something I don't understand, I think I should learn to know how to read intuitions. And not just live with it as if it's not affecting me. Cause it does! BIG TIME.

After reading a few articles about intuition, I found out that intuitives are sensitive to "energy" released by people. Most intuitives would even absorb them. Like me. This explains why I get to suddenly feel so bad upon seeing someone in pain. Even if that person is not saying or showing anything that gives me an idea of what he's feeling.


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..I dunno but how can I feel an energy coming from a person who's far away? Worse... not knowing why. Like my dad. I felt there was something wrong but I dunno what. I can't explain where's it coming from. I only know there's something wrong.

At that time, I didn't know it was anything about my family. What's playing in my head during that time was there could be a very unpleasant energy around me. Which, made me dismiss the idea that there could be a deeper reason behind that unexplained despair inside me.

Then.. the day after dad was confined to the hospital (in the ICU section), I had a strange dream. Dada was talking to me in my dream; telling me that dad was already dead.

I forced myself to get up. My heart was throbbing real hard and fast. I was also trembling. It was 6 in the morning. I had not enough sleep the night before. Really weird. I had to rush to the hospital to check.

I reached the hospital fast and he was just ok. What was the dream about? When should I take a dream as an intuition? Cause I've had several dreams that were actually intuitions and I just dismissed all. How can intuition help me?!

I hope to know.

Problems won't stop coming. Somehow, I am losing grip. But, I know it's unfair. Life is not just about problems. There are still so many reasons to go on.

Like my cute stuffs. Hehe. They make me smile somehow. Petty reasons, yes. But, they represent events and people that give meaning to my life. So, maybe with these stuffs I could keep myself smiling amidst the troubles I am currently facing.



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Yeah...Please do. And help me reach my ultimate dream. Puhleeeeaaaaseee?!!!
...And then lock me inside and never let me go. I promise to be good.



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Bratz Notebook!!! *wink wink*
Just one of my collections. I loooovvvveeee notebooks!




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Another one!




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My PINK diary. *big smile*


This is where I write everything that happens to me in a day. Not really a burn book. It's too cute to be a burn book. I just write down events and my emotions there.



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My Old diary.


I made the design in front. *wink* I used to make greeting cards. A few are just sitting around the house so when I was given the blue notebook, I made use of the card to paste on the notebook. It was a plain royal blue notebook. And I don't like royal blue. So, I did something about it. It made me happy. *smile*




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PINK bedroom slippers recently bought for a cheap-o price.
I hate it when people violate pinkie by stepping on it. GRRR



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Am wearing them! Cutie! AWwww




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The Richie Riches!




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Richie Rich Bear




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Cheap-O slippers...



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Purple optical mouse



FYI: They're not on auction, ok? Just took photos of them to divert my attention from so many pre-occupations.

If you don't find them cute, just keep your mouths shut and save your opinions. Just give it to me. I think they're cute so I posted them here. Made my day.


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I was not able to watch the NCAA games last Wednesday. But I was able to watch the last minute of the 2nd game -- San Beda vs. Mapua. Hehe. The San Beda Red Lions won (of course) by 10 points, 87-77. Their 3rd win for the season.

Grrr...I hope am telling the right information. Anyway, Kelvin dela Pena, at the last 2.5 seconds on the clock, was fouled out. Very unwise act. They could've been defeated with less point lead.

Well, I can't really judge as I was only able to watch a very brief part of the game. Maybe, he has valid reasons for acting that way. Let's give him the benefit of the doubt. I mean, everyone who did not watch the game. Hehe. Like me.

Thanks to Inbound Pass, I got some helpful information. So, the MIT Cardinals were able to take the lead. An 8 point lead during the third quarter, which was stolen back by the Red Lions before the third quarter ended. Whew!

I've always thought that Mapua could be a threat with Kelvin dela Pena playing. But I didn't know that Coach Koy Banal's son, Jonathan, will also contribute greatly to the team's performance. He finished with 15 points next to the leading scorer Sean Co who had 18 for that game.

Samuel Ekwe did not play for this game after the incident during their game with the UPHD. But, obviously, it did not affect the team's preformance. Yehey!

Alamajal did good and so did Menor, Escobal and Marcelo (who was the game's Accenture's High Performer).

Here's the stat:

SBC (87) – Aljamal 21, Menor 13, Lanete 12, Gamalinda 11, Escobal 10, Marcelo 10, Tecson 3, Maggay 3, Hermida 2, Taganas 2.

MIT (77) – Co 18, Banal 15, Del Rosario 13, Dela Peña 11, Acosta 6, Pascual 6, Sumalinog 4, Guillermo 4, Mazo 0.

Quarter Scores: 27-21; 42-38; 64-64; 87-77

UPHD defeated CSB, 62-52. Also by 10 points.

Haven't checked last July 6's games. *sigh*






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